I posted this on Govteen, I got mixed responses. I want some responses from adults. A Day at school. - By Jeff. Non fiction. (today)Today I was stopping by my locker after 3rd period. I was opened my locker and down game the usual 'avalanche' of papers since my organizational skills are non-existant. I opened my backpack and switched books for my next period class, which was History. The 968 page book easily weighed a tenth of my body weight. I stuffed it my book bag along with the notebook and folder. I closed my locker, twisted the combo nob to make sure it was secure. I rose to my feeth and swung my fifteen pound backpack over my shoulders.I've thought about suing the school for a large sum of money since carrying heavy weight can stunt growth. But it wouldn't accomplish much since I would probably lose the case. Anyways, as I was walking to History 125 my arch-nemesis Joseph Marcus strut around me in circles, ridiculing me about my stature and stupid looking shoes. This guy was around 6'1 and easily doubled my weight. I'm 4'10 and weigh approimatley 90 lbs. He has been tormenting me since Kindergarden.Every time he circled around me it ticked me off more. I never fought back, because it's never worth it. But this time he thought it was funny to unzip my book bag and just dump everything on the floor. My pens, work, paper and books were scattered all on the floor. My history book took damage and I knew I would have to pay a fine for it. A rude gesture to the school, I thought.As I was looking down on my scattered papers and school things, Marcus decied to grab my shoulders and shove me into the wall. So i was like.. wtf? This triggered somthing in my brain, like no other. My ball point pen that my grandma gave me for christmas was on the ground. It had a sharp point and contained the real ink. Before he could lay another hand on me I grabbed the pen and stabbed Marcus right in the neck with it. The point when in, I let go of the pen and it was stuck in his neck. Marcus's face got really red, he ripped out the pen like it was nothing. At that moment I couldn't tell if he was really mad or crying. A noticeable stab wound was on his neck, it wasn't gushing blood like in the movie Kill Bill. But it sure was bleeding. He clenched his stab wound and started screaming at me with all varieties of vulgar.Before I could run he grabbed the top strap of my bookbag right after I started running. With his left hand he whomps me over on my right head. It hurt, like hell. Infact, I sent me into the concrete wall. The students were around me were screaming. "Fight, Fight!". But this time the school responded quickly. Within moments the coach of the football team split is up before Marcus could lay a second blow.Both of us were in the principals office after the nurse bandaged marcus's neck and gave me an icepack for my face. Both of us received 1 1/2 week of suspension and was sent home a few hours early than dismissial. I won't beable to go back to school until May 2nd.--end narrationI am so dead. The day i go back to school, I'm going to get the beating of my life. My face doesn't hurt me anymore, so he didn't get me that bad. Although I stabbed him the neck. I could be sued and charged with juvinille manslaughter!I'd just thought I'd share my experience with you. Don't fight back, take the pain and abuse. Then kill them in a masterminded plan 20 years from now. I don't ever want to go back to school. All I'm thinking about right now is killing him.For those of you who are too lazy to read my passage. Here's what basically happened.Kids picks on me since kindergarden.I get madstab him in the neck with a penhe hits meI fallwe get suspendedA lot of people on govteen(whom are teenagers) said "Go Jeff!" some people called me a loser, crazy, etc. But one of the Mods said I need psychiatric help because I have no remorse for stabbing him in the neck. I'm looking for more answers..Questions:What do you think?Why should I have remorse? He torments me all my life, why should he deserve to live?Do I need psychiatric help?Am I going insane?Am I the type to go on school shootings?Please help. It's extremely boring in my room. And its not even May yet.
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Am I Crazy?
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OK, I'll assume that it's a true story.Are you telling me that there were assaults and assults with deadly weapons, and the result is 1 1/2 week suspensions for both of you? No police or anything? No further action by the school? If that's true, the adults involved need to be put in an insane asylum.For all those years no one knew about the bullying? I don't think the embarassment from telling someone would be nearly as bad as the years of torment. If it's reasonable that the stab in the neck can be justified as self defense, you can still press charges.If you kill the guy now you may be charged as an adult, and if you kill him later you certainly will be. In that case, you might be convicted of premeditated murder, and will spend much or all of the rest of your in prison, where you will learn the true meaning of bullying.Do your parents have anything to say about the matter?
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What do you think? - to be honest i think the kid was asking for it, typical stereotype bully, bigger than the person hes picking on etc. My fiance did exactly the same thing when he was in school, put up with the shit until one day he just snapped and battered the bully, from then on he wasn't messed with.Why should I have remorse? - why the hell should you, if he hadn't been in your face for years you wouldn't have done it, it wasn't like it was pre-meditated, you just reacted.He torments me all my life, why should he deserve to live? - everyone deserves to live, cos at the end of the day, what comes around goes around - he will end up being bullied by someone else when he gets into the 'real' world, hopefully a woman LOL he may think hes all that now, but he will find out that hes not.Do I need psychiatric help? - no, well not unless you keep going down the - does he deserve to live route - tho you may need someone to talk to it your room is that boring Am I going insane? - no, you just snapped after years of bullying.Am I the type to go on school shootings? i should bloody hope not, why end your own life, either by getting locked up, or shoot yourself ( as they tend to do ) just cos of some idiot.I don't agree with violence at all, i might add, however, i do not expect people to put up with others treating them like shit. I have brought my boys up to be good to people and respect others, but, if someone is hurting them, and it isn't their fault or they didn't initiate it, then i wouldn't be mad if they hit back!What does your parents think of it all by the way?
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Roan, it may be that now you are treated with more respect since you fought back.I have no idea what sort of person you are, and the bully is, so I don't know if this applies to you or not; but I used to get bullied at school, and part of the problem was that I wasn't respecting other people enough as human beings. The bullies unconsciously picked up on that attitude. It took a long time for me to learn a better attitude, but I gradually learnt that it is possible to be friendly with someone who has hurt you. This might be a good opportunity to try, if you can.
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In reply to:I wasn't respecting other people enough as human beingsYou're saying that you were tormented and assaulted because you think you weren't respectiong other people? It wasn't an arbitrary selection by the bully of a conveniently vulnerable person who was unlikely to fight back?How did your lack of respect manifest itself?
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I was a supercilious arsehole, SteveA.This is not to condone bullying, or to say that the bullies were blameless. But, no, I don't believe it was an arbitrary selection.I'm not saying that Roan is a supercilious arsehole - I'm sure he's not. However, I do believe that there is more than one way to handle bullying, and that less intuitive methods can be more effective.I'll really annoy you, SteveA, and suggest that "love your enemies" is not an ethereal counsel of perfection, but serious practical advice.
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In reply to:I was a supercilious arsehole, SteveA.This is not to condone bullying, or to say that the bullies were blameless. But, no, I don't believe it was an arbitrary selection.That sounds like something right out of a Peter O'Toole movie. I think it's only in England that people get bullied for being supercilious arses. In the U.S. it's mainly people who are loners, who are different in some way that keeps them from fitting in, and who appear to be easily victimized. Which is not to say that supercilious kids don't exist in the U.S.Becoming a hippie must cured you of that affliction. In reply to:I'm not saying that Roan is a supercilious arsehole - I'm sure he's not. However, I do believe that there is more than one way to handle bullying, and that less intuitive methods can be more effective.I'll really annoy you, SteveA, and suggest that "love your enemies" is not an ethereal counsel of perfection, but serious practical advice.It doesn't annoy me at all.When I was in second grade, I wronged one of the neighborhood kids (at least he thought so), so he decided that I needed a beating. His physical stature precluded him from doing so himself, so he brought a big friend of his to administer the pounding. We met, and I told him we could certainly fight, but I was busy at the moment, and could he come back later? We went through several cycles of that until they got bored with the idea.I remember one guy who gave me problems all year in third or fourth grade...I can't remember what the issues were. On the last day of school we had a party, and I gave this guy the candy that I didn't want. He was grateful and actually said something nice to me. Maybe no one had ever been nice to him before that. I never saw him again after that day.In sixth grade some guy gave me a lot of grief, which resulted in a physical fight that ended in a draw (it was more like a wrestling match than a fist fight). A draw was actually a big victory for me, and it ended the problem. That was the last physical fight I ever had.How you handle it depends on the situation. If you're dealing with a violent psychopath, loving your enemy might not end the violence. And what do you if two or more bullies gang up on you?[Media reference: Simpsons, "Bart the General" episode.]
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We are now May 8th and you went back to school on the second. What happened?
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In reply to:Becoming a hippie must cured you of that affliction.I've never been a real hippie. I am an unusual mixture and defy classification.
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Yeah I'm back at school. Apparantly everyone forgot. Lol. So everythings normal now. He leaves me alone. Maybe he's scared of me? Lol.
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Hey Hon, glad everythings ok for ya at school.....and after stabbing him in the neck with a pencil, I think theres a good chance he IS scared of ya LOLThanks for letting us all know hugs