I was depressed for years. More attempts at my life then I care to mention. More stupid things then most, simply because I didn't care. School went to hell because why should I do anything in school? I figured I would kill myself anyways. That feeling. The last pill going down your throat. The feeling of steel sliding across your wrist exposing it. The feeling of pressure on your temple as the barrel rests horizontal against it. That feeling. Everything goes blank. You can't think. You can't move. Is it really over?I'm still breathing, so my guess would be no. It isn't. Should I be happy? Should I be disapointed? Did I want to really do it? Should I just try again and make it end?You dont know what to think. Your confused. You break into tears. You reliaze life isn't that bad. A few weeks later, your in the same exact position.You tryed but life still sucks. Nothing is getting better. When will it end? You ponder this question daily.DOES IT EVER GET BETTER?!Yes. It does get better. Look at your life right now. What makes you depressed? What is that main thing that nags you? Makes you feel down?Think how you could personally make it better. Are you really that bad off? Look at all the good things in your life. Think of the simple things. The little things that some may not have. Are you really that bad off? As much as it seems unavoidable, suicide isn't the right option. It really isn't. People used to tell me this all the time. I always ignored it. Absorbed in my own thoughts of doom and destruction. It does get better. Just stick through it! Its for the best.
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It does get better...
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Great post, FaBMX. Only someone who has been there can say with such credibility.
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I agree with Ineligible.. and to add on to that:"Are you really that bad off?"If you can answer "no" to this question ... then this thread will mean a lot to youIf you can answer "yes" to this question ... then this thread won't mean shit to you
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Amazing post, i think a lot of people need to hear that once in a while
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fantastic post......
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Great post man, it really is true.The only problem is... I am depressed even though I have no REASON to be. I have a great Girlfriend, a great mother who listens to what I say and tries t help, I have a great house, enough money to purchase most any luxury I could desire, I have friends, good school grades, a bright future in science ahead of me... So why the hell am I sad? I've got everything others wish they had... Why can't I appreciate it?... although, I've never been in the suicid position before... so I really can't say. Just thinking that other people's depression might have the same circumstances as mine, in which case, this post won't really help them that much.
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Mole, I've got that same feeling. I've got a wonderful life, no monetary troubles, plenty of friends, great and supportive close friends, a fairly supportive family, great school, and yet I feel like my life is hell. It just makes no sense to me and that makes me even more angry at myself.Is it something that happened to me when I was young and I just can't remember it?Did someone do something to me and I'm blocking it out?Did I fall on my head?Do I have some disease?It's just all so confusing and dumb and I hate it. I hate myself. And even worse I hate when i talk about it, because it makes me seem like some attention seeking angsty goth kid.But I digress, wonderful post. Maybe there is some hope for the future.
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awww hunnie.. great post.. I'm Sooo proud of you.. I can even tell how much you've changed from when i first started talking to you.. to now.. its like.. i hope you dont take this the wrong way.. but a totally new person.. You're great