That was a bit odd

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Today at lunch, I was happy and everything.. Then i went to the restroom.. talked to someone i knew.. Then i just went into this depression type of state.. I got REAL quite.. didn't say a word.. and left for class early.. without saying a word.. Well i got to class.. I was quite.. then i pulled out my cell phone.. Looked at it.. and go totally pissed off.. I turned it off.. and threw it into my back pack.. then i went to sleep ( in class ) ... I actually fell asleep... Well.. i started having this dream.. I pulled out a pipe ( an actual pipe.. i dont own one.. so its weird.. i think it was glass ) and i was looking for my lighter.. ( mind you i just pulled out a glass pipe that was packed in class ... same class i was sleeping in ) .. Then.. I couldn't find the lighter.. and i saw the teacher coming.. and i started to freak... but then i woke up.. and the teacher was like 5 ft. away... Was this odd or what? Last time i smoked was last night.. Maybe i had it cause i'm low on weed right now? I don't know.. It was weird.. BUT (Here is the shocker ) after i woke up.. I felt fine.. I was happy again.. started talking.. then after class.. got my phone out my bag.. turned it on.. and everything was back to normal.. I find this very strange.. any input? Sexpert is this the kind of dream your talking about? It seemed so real..

i hate dreams that seem real.. so was your teacher going to wake you or was she/he just wondering arounfd the room? and like u were saying about in the bathroom. i have had those times. and i zone out lot.

She was wandering.. lol

major mood swings? Is there a chance that you're bi-polar?

You know what, maybe. This isn't the first time this has happen ( Has happen before i started smoking weed too ) What are the other symptons?

I sometimes just get so angry for no reason... and this depressing type of mood has happen before.. I never thought of Bi-Polar as being a possibilty.

Hmmmmmm... Maybe. So, you think you should talk to someone about it? Cuz it really does sound like it. On top of the world one minute and down in a hole the next sounds like being bi-polar. Maybe weed keeps your brain from doing that to you, but it's not a healthy way of solving the solution. I mean, it's expensive!

You know what.. What can cause all my problems ( Depression.. possbile bi-polar ) Could it have been an event when i was younger? When i was like in 3rd grade.. Me and my dad picked up a guy who got shot and then drove him closer to town .. but then we found a cop on the side of the road.. then they called an ambulance.. It really scared me.. I know i cryed a little bit.. But since then.. I havn't gone back to the place at all.. Could that event have caused it all?

I don't think a certain event can make you bi-polar. But I do know that being bi-polar can cause depression. So maybe, if you are bi-polar and you get treated for it then it will also eliminate your depression! :laughing:

I did a little bit of research for you. Read this web page.http://www.bpkids.org/learning/about.htm Here is an excerpt from this webpage I thought you might find interesting. Is substance abuse and addiction related to bipolar disorder?A majority of teens with untreated bipolar disorder abuse alcohol and drugs. Any child or adolescent who abuses substances should be evaluated for a mood disorder.Adolescents who seemed normal until puberty and experience a comparatively sudden onset of symptoms are thought to be especially vulnerable to developing addiction to drugs or alcohol. Substances may be readily available among their peers and teens may use them to attempt to control their mood swings and insomnia. If addiction develops, it is essential to treat both the bipolar disorder and the substance abuse at the same time.

In reply to: Could it have been an event when i was younger? When i was like in 3rd grade.. Me and my dad picked up a guy who got shot and then drove him closer to town .. but then we found a cop on the side of the road.. then they called an ambulance.. It really scared me.. I know i cryed a little bit.. But since then.. I havn't gone back to the place at all.. Could that event have caused it all? that would be a tramatic event for you. I have tramatic stress disorder. my therupist asked me things and did some test.....at the time i didn;'t know that was what he was doing...but he had a thought that it's what i had. he just wanted to know for sure. when he whent over it with me. explaining things. he told me it could range from the experence. like from a car werak to people that were in a war. FaBMX dude..really you might need to go see some one. doctors can help. and they can piss you off but it's for u to get better. all i know is your not going to know unless you get help. b4 we moved i was told i had manic depresson not sure but it think it's like being bi polor ...not sure. that's what i was told. and after what he did i don't know if he knew what the hell he was doing. i was put on meds and things got worse. i got a new therupist after we moved to here and my mom told him what happened and he wasn't too happy ... I think he knew what i had but he had to make sure.

manic depression is the same as bi-polar. Traumatic Stress Disorder and Manic Depression is often mixed up.

Wow.. I might be 'bi-polar' I read most of that link ( Thanks for the link ) and it said something about not really caring about grades or whatever.. and I DONT!.. But since i started smoking weed, I started to care a little bit more... I don't really want to goto a doctor.. I dont trust them at all and I hate man made meds

Well, i think you need to see someone. I mean, think of the benefits! no more depression!

In reply to: I dont trust them at all and I hate man made meds i iknow how you feel. i'm not crazy about them either. i want to get well but their trying. well my therupist is trying. my other doc he's just checks me out noooo thanks to my parents. Grrrrrr but anyway my therupist, he pisses me off but then so does diver some times. but i know what there doing. i don't open up easy...it seems like when i get pissed off i just explode now and things slip out. but their only trying to help me. it's not like a i have a choice in the matter. my paerents make me go to therupy BUT i want to get better. to be hounust i sometimes i look forward to therupy. it's safe...i can unload and it will be ok. he want tell my paerents unless i say it's ok. Diver want tell my mom unless i say it's ok. lol really sometimes i feel like i have 2 therupidst..lol

Yeah. I think of a therapist as someone who just listens and knows a lot about how to help. A lot of people can be therapists, it's just not their profession.

yeah. i'm so sick of ... and how did that make you feel? yesssssss, and your thoughts on that? and what did she do next? bla bla blaaa Grrrrr but what 's cool about him is he lets me express with poems and drawing sometimes. BUT i have to explaine it to him..... now he wants me to talk about details.....but i can't. i'm not looking foward to Tueday.... :frowning:

listening requires questions most of the time. Especially when it's about something you don't want to talk about. I'm not a therapist, but I don't see how getting into it with detail can help.

I was reading that link more ( Pretty long ).. Maybe thats my problem in school! Tired in the morning.. I always am.. I can't concentrate... I'm to tired to do my HW.. DAMNIT.. These are all symptons.. Ok.. Well guess its time to consider conseuling.. What should I do.. Just walk in there.. Im fucked up in the head, help me? or should I set down with the lady i know and tell her what i believe is wrong with me, my consumption of cannabis? Say i do have bi polar or w/e.. Can i still smoke weed? I like the feelings, and dont want to give it up.. I'm sure if i was better.. I wouldn't do it everyday.. but just wondering.. Also, ways to help me get there.. You realize how hard it is for me to ask for help.. I never ask for help, I dont like to trouble people ( accept on the internet, its easy just to type ) .. When i think about going for help.. I start dening i have a problem.. Then i think im just making it up

This the reason i can't stay motivated to do anything? Like my weight loss? Also, If i do have bi-polar.. Can i keep my drivers license?