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    bootacoot

    yeah, i guess thats what im gonna dohomeless FTW

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    i live in the same cycle of lifei never change, mostly because I don't want todrugs give me another side of life the regular people will never experience.so no, i dont plan to quit them.which means only one thing; this will happen again.and againand again.so fuck itive done everything i can to try and be who they want me to be.but i cant.so im done causing them the pain of dealing with a little hell child.might as well have them feel alot of pain at once, then all throughout their lives.

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    bootacoot

    firstly, i really dont know why im posting this, because bottom line is, i'm going to do what I want in the end.tonight might be my last night on this planet.not sure how i might go about such, but I know its the only option i'm willing to exercise.To give a little insight into my past, hers a similar thread I made quite some time ago. Thread Now, wuite literally, everything in the post has been repeated, only this time in high school.My parents have caught me, yet again, for another "thing"For four years o've put my parents through a hellish nightmare no one should be exposed to.I was an e dealer first at thirteen, then again now at fifteen.I'm next to addicted to Dexedrine, or Adderall, both prescription stimulants prescribed for ADD; which I have not been diagnosed with.Over these four year m,y parents have done anything and everything they could to help me through everything.I have done nothing to change.I stop for a while, but nothing amounts of it.I know in my heart i'm a fuck up, and ill probably never change.So why keep putting them and myself through the pain of my actions.Sure, giving up is the easy way out, but ive been down this trail far too many times to do it again.And every time im expected to just adapt to a completely new life.New friends, new hobbies, etcFUCK that.i've done far too much restarting.i've just learned that theres little, if any hope for me.i'm not sure if it might have anything to do with my drug use and emotions, but i've had my IQ tested properly, with an avg of 141, which is >99% of the population.maybe that contributes to my obsessive personality.im not sure what i'm looking for right now, because im quite sure of my decision..sometimes its just nice to get it out.this could be goodbye A2A

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    bootacoot

    Swan Song - Robert McCammon
    amazing book, 1000 pages, little long of a read, but well worth it

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    bootacoot

    not necessarily.
    i am kind of addressing younger guys because you just do.
    Weather we feel inadequate or what, but im sure most of us have done it before; but i could be wrong

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    bootacoot

    i think its safe to say that EVERY guy, im sure myself included either lies, bonepresses or rounds up a to some extent, right?.

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    bootacoot

    holy shit
    that looks awesome

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    bootacoot

    oh damn.
    well you can go without your own gun, just as a once in a while thing

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