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    kenshin86

    I'm 19, turning 20 end of this year. Honestly, I have everything a 19 year old wants, a car, a lovely gf, money, job, school, friends. I'm social, I'm perfectly fine since day 1. However, recently my life has gone down to hole that I try to hide, but actually its inevitable everytime I'm alone and I think about it.It all started with my license being suspended which I'm getting back end of next month. Thing is I'm a car guy, I spent over 15,000 dollars on my car these 2 years. Without being able to drive my "baby" I feel like I'm useless and actually thought about commiting suicide. What worries me is this 2 month suspension I can last, but I'm scared becuase I have other tickets which can cause another suspension and the next one is bound to be 3-6 months which I cannot stand. You guys may think, wow at least this guy can drive and has a nice car and has money to mod it and stuff, but.. all that money was obtained from hardwork and what not and doing little hardwork side jobs to get it. I hate my job, but if I lose it, I don't have the money to do anything to my car anymore... I'm in college, most people in my age is already 2nd year of University or college, but I'm still like near the beginning of first year even though all my close friends are the same, but I still feel like a society drop out. I don't want to learn, I pray I win the lottery so I can start a business because the only reason why I want to go through school is the fact that my parents want me to graduate from college and find an easy load job. I hate my life right now, I don't know what to do... I want to get out of school completely, drive my car without any worry, but I can't... life ought to find some walls to block you to do whatever you want. I hate work, I hate my fucking country for putting up the stupidest driving laws, I hate school, I hate doing stupid shit for money.PS: don't tell me to put aside everything and go through school first, aint gonna work like that because I have very little self-control over myself.Thanks for reading.

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    kenshin86

    long story but i'll try to make it short..
    this girl i like for 3 months now after i work with her and stuff.. we went out twice and she finally likes me but we have too many barriers between us.. she has parents that wont allow her to date with someone younger ( 1 year ) and not until 18 .. she has a chance that she might have to go back to taiwan or japan for university or studying... and apparently.. shes "not rdy" .. iuno.. talked to her on phone yesterday and so much of this popped up in mind and i just dont know wat to do. she even encourages me to give up after like 2 rejections but i cant give up that easily cuz i just like her so much.. to the point where i can say love. wat can i do :S

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    kenshin86

    a girl i know from work.. since 3 months ago.. since the past month we went out once.. i confessed to her but she said.. i'l lthink about it its been a couple days now.. i found out today on the phone with her that shes confused... she likes another guy at my work ( the guy just broke up with his gf ) and she likes me too.. i do not want to give up on her as much as it sounds like she is a player but she never had a bf before. I dont know wat to do now.. shes going on a trip for 2 weeks on the 17th 8 days from now.. i need to do something special for her to make me have a good impression and im the one for her and not the other guy. Wat should i do? i plan on giving a rose to her after her work on friday and saying some corny stuff haha... or any other suggestions?

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    kenshin86

    My friend called her after i tried calling her but she didnt pick up.. she said she has b-day party tmr. which is today .. so we didnt get to go out.. i think its an excuse imo.. lol.. iuno im thinking of moving on or just keep trying to ask her.. any ideas

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    kenshin86

    so.. i asked her out on valentines (today) yesterday... and she said oh busy wit friends to dinner and so im going out wif her tmr but she said she'll pull along a friend and i'll pull one too.. thats all.. lol and she recieved my flower through the school a red one and she nodded and kept looking at me after school and i left lol.. hope all goes well tmr and tonight.. location and time still hasnt been decided =/ .. hope her friend cant come so only me and her xD...

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    kenshin86

    I agree with max on the most part
    Face is what determines what i go for most of the time.. if its ugly .. no show from me lol .. not saying its from all the guys here . Body is just a really a add thing, i don't need it in a girl for me to go after her. Sense of humor, talkative, joking around is wat i like as well and of course no having sandy vagina everyday is good too. Hope this helps heh.

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    kenshin86

    This is my plan..:Tonight.. talk to her on phone for 5mins-30 mins hopfully i'll hint her into asking her for dinner..Tommorow: no matter wat is the situation.. if shes alone im gonna go ask her for dinner..Wednesday: Wish me luck that i get to go dinner wit her :P

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    kenshin86

    Originally Posted By: to_the_pointASK NOW! I recommend something smaller than valentines day for your first date. ASK NOW! Go to the mall and get her a CD/if she has an Ipod buy her a song, save your money on the dozen roses buy her a single rose PINK - or - WHITE in color be absolutely certain that you break off any thorns before your arrival.Loose the attitude "some other dude will ask her and steal my spot." you don't have a spot with her, You are sounding like she owes you something for the rose you are giving her.. Not the way to be man. all i know is.. shes rich so a cd wont mean anything and... everyone here.. to be honest just downloads song i dont know anyone who actually buys songs on ipods. Uhh and.. just a single pink rose.. hmm.... meh.. im alrdy sending her a red one through school iuno another "single" rose would do it.. at least sincerity thing.. lol. and as for the spot thing.. i dont mean it that way lol.. i really mean just if i dont ask her someone else might and she might accept instead =/ =(

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    kenshin86

    Theres this girl in my school.. lets just call her cindy. I liked her for 2 years now... i think she knows.. recently i called her and we talked about various things for 20 mins and she told her friends about it and her friends told me. I bought a rose through the valentines school event and it'll be delivered to her on valentines day. I put in Sincerity as a msg and my name after that. It would mean i have sincerity to ask her out. .. heres my trouble my friend told me to ask her out to dinner on valentines after the rose is delivered.. but i kinda wanna do it soon or else some other dude will ask her and steal my spot. If i successfully ask her out, im planning to buy a dozen of flowers and suprise her with it and of course pay for the nice dinner at a fancy restaurant near us.

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    kenshin86

    So ive been with this girl for nearly a month now. Everytime we get on my bed on the weekends. I mention about sex.. she always says " oh first time cant be given to just anyone but my otherhalf for rest of life" first time hurts, if i give it to u, u'll treat my differently etc... so is there anyway to get sex from here or should i just ditch? cuz like if theres no sex whats there to acheive in a relationship.

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