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    selfpity875

    Well first let me start out by saying i'm 19 years old, and i'm definately in a hole in my life. It all really started 4 years ago when I was 15 years old, the summer before my sophomore year in High School. I had always been shy in school and stuff, but I did have a girlfriend at the time and I was a pretty happy kid, I wasn't doing up to my potential in school because of pure laziness, but I wasn't really doing too bad either. Well one night of that summer my mom told me that my dad, the one who was with me when I was born and I went and saw every weekend for my entire life wasn't even my real dad. The guy that I idolized and everything that I did was to impress him. The relationship with him...for me atleast, just hasn't been the same ever since. Actually come to think of it, I haven't been the same ever since. The next year in school I missed 60 days of the year, because I lost interest in school at all. Well the next year I was really behind so I decided to really up my effort and I was doing good for awhile, I was still missing too many days, but not as much as I had. I was then kicked out of school during the semester for my attendance problems. Soon thereafter, my girlfriend broke up with me because I got kicked out, and that's when I changed. Through all of my life I never had drank, smoked, done drugs, in fact I hated people who did.Well soon following my expulsion I drank for the first time. Then I started drinking more and more, then I started smoking pot. I was gettin drunk every weekend and getting high everyday atleast 3 times a day. It seems to me I've lost or pushed away all of the people that I had surrounded myself with beforehand. All of the people that I used to hang out with when I was in school, I no longer hung out with. My friends soon started moving, girls losing interest in me because I had/have zero initiative to do anything with my life.Well I basically have done jack shit the past 3 years and here I sit 19 years old, and I feel that i'm letting my life, especially my youth while I still have it, slip away from me. I know I'm only 19, but I can't get rid of the feeling that my life has been a failure. Actually it has been a failure and for some reason I can't get the will-power to turn it around.I would like to get my GED and go to a community college, but even then I still wouldn't know what I wanted to do with my life. There's nothing I have found that interests me for a career. I really would like to meet some people but I don't even know how to meet any new people, considering I live in a small town and I already know everyone. I currently work a full-time job, but it's not what i'd like to do forever.I have quit smoking pot for over a year, but now i'm thinking about getting started back on it again, and i've even considered trying some different drugs. I still drink too much and I believe I am becoming addicted, although I have cut-down since I started working. What really bothers me is how empty my life feels, and how lonely I really feel. I feel like I have nothing, and I also feel that I have no opportunity to have anything in my current situation.

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    selfpity875

    In my school, showers were optional, and very few took showers.

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    selfpity875

    I remember sometimes I would get ache's around the time I was 14-15 and one of my testicles was slighty bigger than the other, of course at first diagnosis by myself I thought "CANCER," because i'm just crazy like that. If it aches all of the time i'd DEFINATELY get it checked out, mine turned out to be nothing, but you may still wanna get it checked out. Don't worry about your penis being seen by a doctor, you'll have to let them see it to get into 9th grade next year

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    selfpity875

    You guys all say that it doesn't matter how big it is, it's who its attached to. That is true in a sense, but not for people my age(18). Sure, if I was 25-40, and my dick was as it is now 5.75" x 4.5" around, I wouldn't be as self-conscious because women would actually have maturity by then. When you're 16-18ish, it's ALL about the penis size. If you've ever listened to a girl my age talk about penis size, it's all about how big it is. I'm sure there are some exceptions, but I can't seem to find any, which is bullshit because it's not like I would judge a girl because she has small breasts?I was just with my friend and these 2 girls not that long ago and they were sitting there making fun of ex-boyfriend's they had had with small penises. Saying they could of probably jacked it off with their pinky and stuff like that, and that is how the majority of girls my age are(and i know quite a few). It's not so much length that should be a concern, it's the girth that really matters. I'm sitting here stuck with 4.5" girth, very self-conscious, because i've never seen a penis as thin as mine, then again i've never seen a penis outside of a porno. Hey but I know in reality, my penis is probably fine, a girl who actually liked me wouldn't care that my penis was small. But hey, 5" is fine in length, if you have the girth to back it up, if not, go for it anyways, ATLEAST you would have given it a shot so you REALLY KNOW how a girl would react, I think that would really help you.

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    selfpity875

    I have the same problem. I myself drink a lot, although I should definately stop, but I haven't. I do have problems getting an erection at times, and I notice I have no problem at all if I don't drink for a week or so.

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    selfpity875

    lol i tried the position where u lay on ur head with ur feet against the wall and i pinched a nerve in my neck/back, that ought to put a hold on my dream LOL

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    selfpity875

    Dude, I just turned 18 and I am almost the exact same measurements as you, and I can't yet grow facial hair either(just some on my upper lip) and I do have underarm hair and lots of pubic hair(not as much underarm hair as you would expect for a full grown man though). I think that we are both about in the same spot in puberty, and we may both still have our girth to grow.

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    selfpity875

    Well I basically just sat sort of on my lower back, right leg behind my head which allowed me to get the closest. I am not really that flexible of a guy, and i'm not exactly in good shape, but not really out of shape either. 6', 180. I can actually touch the tip of the head to my mouth, but I can't go any further, well I probably could but I don't want to risk it.

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    selfpity875

    Well at first I was thinking "thats pretty fuckin gay blah blah blah.." Well today I masturbating and I thought...hell why not give it a try. So I put my leg behind my head and went for it, SO CLOSE(my penis is only 5.75 inches too). I then try again even close, then the third time the tip of my tongue touched it and I got sperm on my tongue(disgusting). After trying for a little while I barely got my lips around the very end of the head. For some reason this really turned me on. Anyways I need TIPS on how to just get a LITTLE bit farther. Like leg props, stuff like that...

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    selfpity875

    I know some guys have a smaller penis head than the shaft, but it just seems like my penis head is under-developed or something. It just doesn't look like all of the other penis heads that I have seen(on porn that is).

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