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    I'm new.Currently I'm not in school & I spend all of my time home. I really have no choice, I still don't know how to drive a car, my mom is helping but it's a slow process.All throughout High school,I did very bad in school because I had no interest in the work. I know, me being stupid. I never really gave much thought about college & what would I like to be doing in the future. I've thought, but nothing ever comes & still doesn't until this day. I don't have a clue what I'm going to do with my life?? I don't even know if I can handle taking care of myself. I still don't understand alot about money & how to pay bills & all of that adult stuff.. No one really taught me.I know it's a shame & here I am beginning to be 19 on Saturday. Ever since graduation, it's been depressing. All of my friends have gone off to college & I'm officially alone . My parents work most of the time & are usually too busy or tired to really listen to me.Since I don't know how to drive, it's going to be really hard for me to get a job. I've tried lots of places but I don't know, I never get hired or anything. So I spend everyday here at the house, watching tv until my eyes hurt. I cry alot & it's really getting to me that I have no life. I regret the mistakes I made. Overall, I'm lost & I don't know what I should be doing with my life.I don't have any talents.Back in High School, I never did anything.. I wasn't into sports or anything. Nothing interests me.. Is there something wrong with me?I don't know if I can handle college, because I cannot stand reading or being still like that in a long time, that's why I hated homework or classwork, my mind always wandered off when the teacher was talking or reading. I'd have to keep rereading until I focused hard enough to understand things about what I was reading about.

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