I’m already 24 years old but my life still not on its track. I still haven’t graduate from my college, and I failed my major course for the 2nd time. I’m angry because I have no solid reason to be like this. I’m not depress and I don’t have major problem to be worried of. My family is okay, just that sometimes we have problem with money. My mind can’t focus on work. I keep thinking about this girl I’m in love with and nothing else. I feel so useless. i’ve been doing nothing this whole year (2007). This should be my final year in college, but I failed again. What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? Why can’t I do my job right? I was supposed to finish up my assignment, but I only did it halfway. I found myself hardly wants to get up from bed. Sometimes I woke up in the late afternoon. I hate myself more and more. I feel so guilty towards my parents.
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I'm so lost...
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Maybe you're not focused on priorities... just sit down one day and ask yourself what really matters... your education should be the thing you work hardest with... then your family matters... then your love, if not the other way around with your love then family...You shouldn't be upset with yourself... Lots of people have problems with their priorities and even more have studying issues... try to get through this next year and work your hardest... don't let things get in the way... push yourself to pass. You should strive and not put more pressure on yourself because you don't do the best...I'm sure your family backs you 100%. they are probably very proud of you and even though they might be a little upset with you failing classes, if you go to them and just talk... not unload anger or anything, but just talk about what's holding you back, they will probably support you all the more...So get back out there, brush yourself off, and keep going! You'll make it!
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That does sound like some depression, started probably by losing motivation.The first thing to remember is that losing motivation in college studies is normal. It happens to many, perhaps most, students at some point. If you recognise that it is normal, you don't need to feel that this makes you useless.What you need is to decide to keep studying anyway, even though you no longer enjoy it, and that you will arrange your study practices to help support you in this. You may well find that you work better in some particular place, for example - so you go there to work.As you get into good habits, it won't make the work enjoyable, but it will become easier to do, and you'll feel much better about yourself.
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thank you guys. that really helps.. for now. Right now i'm building the courage to tell my parents, to face other people. i feel so ashamed of myself and i'm scared i will fall into depression again. i was in quite a bad depression last year and i thought i've recovered. But so far i still got a strong hold of myself. i'm working hard to concentrate on my priorities as well as balancing my emotional state.
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you know what? i am in a very similar position as you are. i find it very difficult to do ANY of my class work anymore. i am just SO burnt out and am quickly losing all motivation. you are not alone in this. maybe it is time to reevalute what makes you happy. if you are able to do something for yourself, then it will probably be a lot easier to complete your goals. also, remember that you are not on anyone's timeframe but your own! hang in there, and take one step at a time.