My mum....

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she would ask questions and wont give me time to answer! and if i do answer something she would just take it personally but thanks for ill try telling her that its a sensitive issue for me but she may try to press it more =/ and plus shes stressed about my grandads will so i suppose now may not be a good time to talk to her or anything

Yeah, Nny pretty much hit the nail on the head. Your mother will always act like a mother, even when you tell her a million times to give you space. But that's why you have to try your very best to be patient with her. And hopefully, your mom will come around give you your space.

look, about 2-3 years ago i was in the exact same position as you, and i can tell you that not talking to your mom is the worst you can do. i did the same to mine. if you want, look up my old posts. you'l see how i used to be, but im good now, except for the scars that probably wont ever go away. do you know how horrible my skin looks now? i have to deal with so many questions and shit, and it looks so damn ugly. at school, its very rare to see me without a hoody. do you want your skin looking like that for the rest of your life? its horrible. and really, your mom can help you. she loves you, and she wants whats best for you, you really cant blame her. you're her baby. but if you must shut her out of your, feel free to pm me and il give you my screen name or something and we can talk about this

i just thought i might be of some help, since i went through basicly the same thing, and ive been clean for about a year and a half now( i think, maybe longer)and btw, you dont have to call me celithrathien, i know its a bitch to type out sometimes lol. just call me celith for short, or patty.

haha, well i guess its the thought that counts :P

Dude, if you want to talk about anything, you can come talk to me.

Unlike a lot of other people that just say "you can PM me if you want" and don't really mean it, I *will* try to help you as best as I can.

As a mother hon i would be worried sick if my kid was cutting and i would want to know why so i could help, its only natural and she cares thats all.I realise how angry its making you that she keeps going on about it, but thats because she is trying to understand so she can help, we mothers have to help its what we do!!If you don't want to talk to her about everything, you at least need to sit down with her and tell her something, for one thing hon you're not being fair, try to understand how she must feel knowing you're doing this.Tell her that you love her, but can't talk to her about it, YET, and that asking and bringing it up all the time makes you feel ashamed and even worse. As long as she feels the lines of communication are open between the two of you, she might not feel the need to hassle you all the time.

yeah ill try all of the advice and let you know how it goes or pm some people here

Cutting, is a horrible thing to start. I'm saying this from experience. I started cutting myself when I was 13, I had just turned 13 actually. I'm 18 now by the way. I went for months without anyone knowing.. Then of course someone found out, and of course my mom found out. And my mom is also a very dramatic person, and so is my Dad. When my mom found out all she did was cry which made me feel even worse, which made me cut more. When my Dad found out he told me I was stupid and that I wasn't solving any problems at all. So they started sending me to therapists and whatnot.. I got put on anti-depressants, which I still take to this day. But I can tell you this, no matter what, your mom is going to worry about you. And since she has found out shes going to watch for it, and I'm sure you'll find ways to hide it, everyone does. As much as your mom is probably driving you insane, she really does care, and she doesn't know what to do. Most likely she has never had to deal with anything like this before and it's a shock, and it hurts her to see her child in pain like that, knowing that there really isn't much that she can do. Your mom most likely feels helpless. You may not be able to explain to her why you hurt yourself, because I never could explain it to anyone really, maybe you could just tell her the things that are bothering you. And believe me, if there is anything she can do to help you, she will. No mother wants to see her child go through that.As for the self mutilation, you should really try and stop. Easy said then done, I know. I cut for about 4 almost 5 years. I have horrible scars all over my body from that. My wrists are really bad, but I have lots and lots of scars on my legs, even on my hips. If you don't stop now it will only get worse. If you think it's hard talking to your mom about your problems, imagine when your out on a date and your date glances at your arm or where ever and says "What happend there?" It's obvious. You can;t really make up a story for that. I can't even count the number of times I've been asked what happend to my wrists.. And all I can say is I went through a bad point in my life and made the worng choices. I'll have these hundreds of scars on my body for the rest of my life now, and I'm sure many many more people will ask me what happend and I will have to go back into my same story.. over and over.. Like I have for the past 5 years. I know it won't be easy, it wasnt for me, I still get the urges to cut, but I know that it wont solve anything, it'll just bring up questions from other people, hurt my family members, and leave scars on my body to remind me everyday of all the shitty things Ive been through. Sometimes you just want to forget the bad stuff, and it's hard when you look down and see the scars, it brings you back, and will for the rest of your life. I have a tattoo on the inside of my wrist now, it only covers some of the scars. But I know with that there I'll never cut again.. theres no way I'm messing that thing up! The funny thing is I was in so much pain getting it, even though I use to slice up my arm so bad there was no skin left. Anyway, things change. Life gets better. Life is never perfect, but everyone has one and everyone has to deal with problems. You know I heard a quote once when I was in the hospital after attempting suicide that really stuck with me... "You complain about not having shoes, until you saw the man with no feet". Basically there's always someone out there who has it worse than you. Be thankful for what you have. Be thankful you have your mom that really cares about you, there's many kids who don't have parents at all. You can get through this, if I did it, you can too, it isn't impossible.Sorry I have a thing for posting long posts I guess, but I really hate to see people go through the things I went through.