so, I've been reading the book, "perks of being a wallflower" by stephen chbosky. great book btw. well my parents confronted me about sleeping all day and going from sleeping all day to getting up and going straight to work or hanging out with people. my parents put a huge emphasis on taking initiative around the house. they say they shouldn't have to tell me to do anything. well that book im reading made me realize that i need to stand up to my mom and say something. she woke me up this morning and asked me what time i got home and what time i had to go to work. she also gave me a very dirty look and just walked away. she tends to do that often.
so i got up and talked to her. and i will say this: i am going to tell you exactly what happened.
i asked her why she is acting the way she is acting towards me.
she proceeded to explain that she feel like i wasn't doing anything around the house and i was just laying in bed all day. she basically explained to me that she thought i would stay in the basement until i was 40 if i could...
i explained to her this: i have some stuff i am dealing with right now and i am not really worried about responsibilities around the house. i told her that this stuff is more important to me than responsibilities around the house. i also told her that if they needed me to do anything, to tell me to do it and i will do it. i just cant keep things on my mind such as taking out the trash or raking leaves when i got bigger things that are occupying my mind. so i basically told her that if she tells me to do something, i will do it.
so my mom replies with this: "well, i wish i could have the luxuries of being able to just worry about my problems. we have to shove our worries aside and focus on work and other things so we can have money."
i thought this was very wrong. it isn't my fault that they put money in front of their happiness. i'm not just exaggerating this. they usually go on a few cruises a year and buy expensive brand name food. that's their choice. they could save money and create time for themselves but they choose to lead their life differently. i want to make sure happiness is at the top of my agenda because i don't want to be depressed anymore. i don't want to end up committing suicide like i feel like doing all the time.
don't get me wrong. i plan on making sure that my career is top priority when i am in college, but right now i am in a place where it doesn't matter right now. I am in between high school and college. so i'm trying to deal with my issues before they leak into the "real world."
is this understandable?
or am i being that blindly irrational.