My depression is getting bad

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i know this want make you feel better but maybe it might put a small grin on your face. Larger size in your email to add - i didn’t think you would mind sharing the smaller version.

Thank you Caleb. That's making me cry. I can't tell you how much that means to me. Your a great, great friend and a great great person.

That's so lovely! Brought a smile to my face as well.

I sure miss my puppy-dog. I think that is part of what is getting me down so much. Caleb captured him perfectly.

Ahhhhhhh How Cute!
What a great water color Cal. You did an awesome job...

Scotty, I'm sorry you lost your friend and family member. When I lost my Cat of 18 years, I was devastated for almost a year. I still get all emotional when I think of him or have a really bad day and just need a kitty snuggle. Their love is soooooo unconditional.

You never get over it Scotty... Ya just learn to live with it better

Big Hugs to you Man!

wow... I didn't think gorgeous people could get depressed.I'm sorry Scotty I sometimes have those rare random moments where I get severely depressed. Especially lately. I miss home already but I'm trying to learn to deal with it. I feel like giving up sometimes and school JUST started. Or my insecurity will completely take me over and I'll convince myself I'm ugly, pathetic, and stupid. I don't know... I kind of have my own methods of dealing with my depression and that's praying and listening to music... helps alot.I hope things get better darling you're such a wonderful and amazing person

Thanks Hun, I've been doing better. I'm tired of hearing myself complain, anyway. I guess one method I have of dealing with things is to pour myself into alternate realities. Well, I guess that's not dealing with it that's just avoiding it. I've really tried to get into colonial history and architecture and have been reading about things as diverse as phaeton carriages, architecture of the James river, a biography of Jefferson and the most distracting and non-productive of all things, drawing and redrawing and redrawing Monticello and Poplar Forest from H.A.B.S. drawings. The worst part of this is that eventually I'll become board with whatever subject I'm studying and then I'll be between manias and in a worse funk than ever and even farther behind in life.If your home sickness gets to bad focus on the next time there's a break and you can make it back home. Generally the first few times of coming back home is nice and you won't want to leave but very soon you start missing your life that's back at college and coming home, while still a welcome treat, doesn't hold the same allure it once did.

Scotty,Why don't we plan a road trip?

Sounds great to me, Roc. Anything that will allow me to run from reality a little longer. Where do we head?

How have you feeling lately?? Has it gotten better?