I'm out

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I don't know I feel like people aren't taking me seriously anymore.

well Im glad you came back. stick it out!

Tony, I do take you seriously, that's why I post replies. I suffer from paranoia of a different type. What goes on in your mind, I understand it well. It's just that you need to relax a bit. If you worry so much, it gets harder for others to help you. I hope you will stick around. Life is about enjoying yourself, having fun etc. Don't worry so much hugs.

But I am a worrier. And after all when you experience negative things you worry even more and have even less confidence in yourself. And my life really isn't much fun. It's all very sad and depressing and with all I mean my family also drags me down.

My life sucks too. I have to deal with problems within my family and my extended family on daily basis. I am currently worried about when my parents or me will be targeted. I know negative things drag a person down and even self confidence gets shattered, I have been through that. But, one has to stay strong and have hope. One thing I want to say is try to look for a tiny piece of hope in everything. I have even forgotten what "happiness" means or how it feels, this should give you an idea of what my life is like. I won't try to give you any advice like be happy or think positive, that's something you should do on your own by yourself. How you change the way you see things and what actions you take to make things better is definitely up to you. As long you worry about reasonable things it's fine. Don't try to worry too much over small things, that's all I can say.

You speak well saya. There is always someone to help in any situation. Its just finding that right person. Sometimes situations can seem so deep that it feels like u will never get out of the hole ur in. It all comes down to finding urself (the rose) amongst all the thorns. With belief comes self confidense and with that comes the will to do what makes u happy. Everyone goes thru tough times in life. Some rise to the challeges while others find things a little more difficult. Doing things u enjoy and seeing people u enjoy being around are the first steps to positive thoughts and feelings. Talking about how u feel is a great first step to recovery. Dont look at ur life in 10 years time, look at it as a new beginning starting from tomorrow. Its all about taking control of urself. Striving for that something special that only u can find. U will find it.

For me this isn't a "tough time" I have been miserable for many years because of various different reasons. First because of studying and then also because of health issues. There's really nothing in this life I can really look forward to. I also haven't really been happy for years how can you be happy when you have tons of shit problems? That's not possible. I can only be less pessimistic but not happy.

I do understand what ur going through, maybe not fully, but we have all been there in one shape or form. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is always something to look fwd to, even if only small. Its the little steps that turn into bigger steps that makes all the difference. I know it can be hard to think positive when so many negatives are surrounding you, but the darkness is never permanent unless u want it to be.

I think you need to distinguish between things which suck and are temporary like going to school or whatever or things which are permanent like health problems. In this case there is no light at the end of the tunnel in fact the tunnel only gets darker.

What i would like to know, and u dont have to tell me here is u dont want to, but are ur health problems progressive? will they get worse over time, or whatever they are right now is how it will stay? coz that makes alot of difference in my view.