I have been with this girl for a year. We didn't have problems till a bout June. She got word she was getting deployed (later rescinded) I flunked out of the police academy. All she talked about was how sad she was in June when she heard she got deployed. SHe talked about her funeral etc. I was getting down too. I tried to comfort her and make her mind at ease..that she will not deploy. I wanted a short break. I asked her if she wanted that. I let it go for a day and realized I couldn't be without her..that I want her to be with me. I told her that if she goes to Iraq I'll go. She was a upset that I could even think that I would consider breaking up or time off. I told her I made a mistake. I love her and that I couldn't be without her..even if it was just a day. After that I let my heart just flow. I noticed she changed and took on the dominant role. Seemed that I got her irritated more often. I really irritated her a month later. Spent July 4th at beach. She got irritated about me getting into the water and joking about having only one kid. She wants three. I called her the next day and she doesn't return my calls till the following day. I missed her. ANd then a week later I propose to her ring and all. She hinted she wanted marriage. Now I am getting deployed and she is not. A month ago she breaks up with me. She said she is not cutting me out of her life. She calls every now and then until a few weeks ago. Found out she stayed late at her office talking to some guy who is married with kids. They went to the beach late at night one time. Week later the guy brags to his friends that he 'hit' it with her. I asked her and she denies it. I asked her again few weeks ago and she had a hard time telling me which beach they went to. I told her I love her and we can work things out. She said she is not going to wait two years for me to get back home. Then had to go. Left message on her phone begging her back. When I learned she was supposedly folling around with this married man I went off and tried to kill myself. It was painful. COuldn't believe my angel would ever do anything like that. Now we are not even talking at all. I apologized to her Mom about not asking them for their permission to marry her and for the expensive anniversay gift I gave her. I fucked it all up. Before at least she would call and we would talk...but then again I had to put all my feelings aside...cuz I missed and still miss her. I fucked it all up..or did I?
Messed it all up
i say well done to you for trying to be a good boyfriend....and i also think that if this girl is not willing to wait then it's not true love...i think you should get back out there and start looking for that special someone again....dry your eyes mate... there's plenty more fish in the sea.