it not that easy paul hun, favouratism or something, but it all very 1 sided. i guess it just something i have to put up with, but was so close to doing it, to making everybody happy, if that what they all want, and it makes sense, but i said before, i too gutless to do anything about it, i all talk, which drives me crazy, i hate it, hate the fact that nothing will ever happen, that when it comes down to it, i wnt do it. goddam
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"no one cares about you, kill yourself freak."
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i want to die right now
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heheh, this is the 3rd goddam time of writing this thing, stupid arse computer! Yeah, i knida know it not true, but when said byu my brother with so much passion and said so ofeten, i starting to think maybe it is true. maybe i should go, stop being such a burden, such a waste on peoples lives (sorry ed). i really am running out of ideas.Get my results on thursday for exams i sat in january, not looking forward to it. it be another day of being a failure, anopther day of being told by my dad that i am a failure, thast i hjave let everybody down and they rae ashamed to have me in their family, in their lives. maybe it not true but really kills when it said by memebrsa of my family, people who have had such and influence on me, people i used to respect more than anything. heh, here i am babbling again, you must get so irritated by me!CR, you ok?? you worrying me, you know you can PM or email me anytime, i here for you. Know how you feeling, starting to think it be easier and stuff just to go, just to slip out. I bin writing this in a classroom full of people, and nobody has noticed, nobody has said anything.Sorry, i just this annoying teenager moaning about her life, when it really not so bad, others have it worse, so sorry to all that do have it worse, i dont mean to babble so much, just had to get it out. My parents are starting to reconsider me coming on here, coz of the ppl i might be talking to, grrr, will be totally alone and isolated, really dont no how that will work. Ok, will go now, enough of meBecky xx
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heh sorry about the spelling, school compooter is fucking up.
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Allow yourself to breathe. Sometimes we have to rise to amazing heights just to breathe some fresh air, but its there. Just a matter of how high you want to surface. You can do it, you have it in you. Stop seeing yourself as a faliure!
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If you dwell on the negative then your life will be negative.
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Whoa Amanda... Out of everything you ever said, I like that the best.
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Well it's the truth. If you sit around and mope and complain about your problems and bring you and everyone around you down then how can your life be happy and positive? You're contaminating your life and making it negative. Focus on what you have in life, how lucky you are to be living, think positive even when you are down, and eventually things will take a turn for the better. Everything in life has a way of working itself out.
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Gets down on kneesI'm not worthy, I'm not worthy...I totally agree.
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I always try to think postive.. But they get worse