I hate my life, Please cherish yours.

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Please read all of this. As you can see my name, IAmUgly, clearly states that i am, ugly. I am 16, 5'8, 200 lbs. Recently in the past six months, ive been drinking 12 cups of water a day, no soda, a can of V8 here and there, bag of carrots, you know, those healthy choices? Well, anyway, I am fat. I look,feel,smell fat. I hate the way i look. I shower for nearly an hour, use lots of soap, when i hope out, i still feel and smell stink. I get 9 hours of sleep a day, i have lots of back/stomach hair, and i get pimples on my face,stomach,back, and arms. I hate every aspect of me. I have never had a girlfriend, a girl has never 'liked' me, a girl will probably never like me. Fine you say? Sure they are just little things, but just the fact of knowing that someone 'liked' you or whatever, makes you feel good, if you think about it. But me, since i know for a fact i am not attractive to anyone, really makes me feel bad. I dont have any friends, i mean, i got about five people who i can talk to without them looking weird at me, every time. They are not my friends, though. They would not stant up for me when i was right, when everyone thought i wasn't. I mean, everyone looks at me differently, they talk to me differently, and in general, no one likes talking to me. Whenever we do current events, i get up in class, and when i am done, NO ONE claps for me, not even the bullshit of a teacher i have. But everyone claps for everyone else. Like i have said, not a big deal for you guys, but just knowing no one clapped, makes you feel like shit. I dont talk weird, imo, i 'be myself' like everyone says, i dont get angry easily, you know, im 'normal'. Right now i am in summer school, sit next to this very skinny girl, who eats 4 twix bars, 2 bags of chips, and a soda every single day i see her. I asked her if she exercises or something, and she simply said 'no'. And shes been doing this for years. I eat a bag of chips and my fat ass of a belly sags even more, i hate myself. Everyday for 2 months straight i go home, rest for an hour, ride my bike to Golds Gym, get my fat ass on an eliptical for one hour. Which equals 1000 calories, everyday. Youd think id lose some weight? Nope. None. I eat right, I drink 12 cups of water a day, and not a fucking damn pound has been lost, and the skinny girls in my class eat whatever the fuck they want and dont have to worry about shit, i hate my life. Is this a dream? Can i pinch myself yet? Is this a diabolical gambal-scheme created by the devil and god? I can see it now "Will the ugly fat man kill himself, or get a grip and realize that he will always be fat and ugly". So everyone reading this, cherish your lives, its defiantely a lot better then mine. Sorry for the swearing, i hate the way life works, and id wish that this was all a dream, and i fucking hate my life. Reply if you care.

Fuckin stop with this negative thoughts and get some friends

Seconded, pull yourself together, get a gym membership, get some spot cream, shave your hair and get some mates.

I kind of know how you feel in your social life, i went through it for a few years, but i was lucky to find a few friends, not at all a lot though. It doesn't matter to me though, i have myself, and thats all i need for now, i'll never know what lies ahead of me, so i just take work my life one day at a time. Take some pride in yourself, and never lose it. It seems you try everythign to lose some weight, but it could be something medical, ask you doctor if its your thyroid or something with metabolism. I've always have been in shape, but only because i work hard everyday after school at swim practice. Competitive swimming is such a hard and underrated sport, you should try it, its hard in the begining though. You also might make some friends. And for people that don't respect you at school, which has happened to me in the past, and now, but at a lesser degree, f'k them. They'll be losers in life probably anyways, so don't lose all hope, there's a light somewhere...

Lol, if you even bothered to read the entire post, but judging by your post you didn't, i indeed have a gym membership. Did you even read anything other then the title? I fcking exersice my fucking ass off, my entire shirt gets drenched in sweat, and i drink about 8 cups of water during the hour that my fat ass is running. And i havent lost weight in almost 2 months, doing the same thing every day. Get some friends? How am i suppose to 'get some friends', when almost the entire school doesnt like me, for who knows what? Just the other day i was walking through the mall, i saw a lady holding a baby, walked pass them, and the baby started crying, and the lady called me an asshole, what a fucking bitch she is. Do i have some negative-invisible charge inside of me that instantly makes people angry when they look at me? And yes i gave up on destiny/faith/god/jesus/confidence a long time ago. Like i said, my life is a lot worse then any of yours, so atleast you're all not as bad as me.

hell, i was just trying to help you with you social and body issues, and i did read your post completely, i know you go to a gym, but aside from that, swimming is a good sport for weight management. If that doesn't help, it could be something you can't control, like thyroid, which is why i said you could see a doctor and be put on some medication. I know about thyroid because my mom is the same way.

Sorry, the start of that post was to the dumbass who didnt even read the thread. Thanks for what you're trying to help me with, could be a medical issue, i live in hawaii by the way, i tried joining canoe padling, supposedly its the 'ultimate way to lose weight' did it for 6 months and lost one pound. I cant go to the beach, because ill get sunburned and therefore cant run anymore, my back will hurt too much, tried that one before.

There's no "ultimate" was to lose weight through exercise. The amount of weight you lose is proportional to the number of calories you eat minus the number calories you burn. If you're metabolism is screwed up (e.g., hypothyroid), you will have trouble losing weight, but you will also feel kind of weak and tired all the time.It's just not reasonable that you're limiting your caloric intake (I assume that's what you mean by "eating healthy, besides getting a balanced diet of non-junk food), exercising, and not losing weight. Either you're eating more than you think you are, or you have a metabolic problem.I suggest that for at least a few days, you keep a log of everything that you eat. From that, you (or someone) can figure out how many calories you're getting. I would also highly recommend talking to a nutritionist.

Hell who gives a shit! if you live in Hawaii, just lie on the beach all day and fuck everyone, much better than the concrete jungle I live in.

Look, a lot of the time it's not how the guy looks, but how he acts. So here's my list of things for you to do to get a bit more... cheerful.
~You need to think about yourself in a really positive light- never insult yourself. If you do this, think of five good things about yourself (like how you obviously are very diligent, health oriented, etc, you can't use those!) for every one insult.
~If you ever find yourself looking at the floor during school, make yourself look up and keep your chin parallel to the floor.
~Always make eye contact with whomever you're talking.
~Smile when you get done with your current event, and make your current event something happy.
~Expect people to like you and respect you.
~Say to yourself: "I am myself, and I am great" as often as you can- even say it in your head.
~Remove the word 'hate' from your vocabulary when describing yourself.
~Never eat until you feel bloated or really full (it can stretch your stomach 20%, I do believe); eat until you are satisfied.
~Never eat when you feel like you're starving; eat when you feel slightly hungry.
~Never eat just because you're bored or sad.
~Find something (daily) you admire about yourself, and write it in a notebook (that will not be seen by others).
~Volunteer at an animal shelter or other care facilities; helping others can help you, too!

That's about all I can think of at the moment; but I will surely post more if I think of them. GOOD LUCK! :grin:

I understand you. . . Once in my life, I was overweight, and I felt let down by the whole society.I hated myself for who I was, being fat and all yet one day my dad told me: you are just pathetic: I expected more from a son of a boxer. That was the last straw, I trained exactly like my dad and after half a year I was able to drop 15 kilos, and I felt good being the new me. As for friends, you might be looked down on, but in my school people ran away or would just not talk to me. Well, I guess being in a civilized country where violence is something not that tolerated, I scared people. So I thought, fuck them, I don't need no friends. Yet many of my sparring friends became good friends as they understood me. . . It takes a while to drop a few kilos, but once you dropped you'll start dropping until a. you're satisfied, b. you're unable to drop more and that is where most people try to go but I recommend, don't expect to much in 6 month, it takes months, as in 8+ months.Keep it up, show those idiots not to look down on you..- Taison! out

dude goto www.bodybuilding.com and then goto the forums. goto the forum about weight loss. spend some time reading the posts on what to do to lose weight and stuff. I guarantee you the reason you are not losing weight is your diet. sure your eating veggies and drinking water and crap but believe me, after you read the posts and stuff you'll realize that you can eat veggies and drink water all you want and you'll probably still be fat and miserable in the end. results dont come overnite, expect to spend the next 3-6 months working your ass off before you see results. It will take a lot of discipline and if you dont give you I guarantee you, you'll see results. If you want more personalized advice with other things you are looking to improve (your acne problem, friend problem, girl problems) feel free to private msg me and I'll do my best to help you.

In reply to: ~Never eat when you feel like you're starving shit. Does that mean i`m a never gonna eat again ?

yea that never eating even if u feeling like you're starving concept is totally wrong. If u are eating correctly you would never be hungry. Most americans overweight or not arent eating correctly in the first place.

That's not true. I eat 3 healthy meals a day and I'm always hungry. "If you're hungry then don't eat," that concept applies to some people.

Wow, I felt like crying when I read this post. IAMUGLY you are not fat ok? Let's just call it big boned. You may think you are ugly but I vey much doubt it. It is not all about the looks it's about personality. When someone sees you they first notice your appearance (duh) but don't just let them think you're some fat man. Show them that you have personality and that you are a great person to be around. If you don't get girls then those around you are just sick and have no heart. I would definately date someone like you if I got to know you a little better becayse it's not all about appearance. As for the girls who eat junk and are skinny I am one of them. I will eat junk food and not gain an ounce but then my curves started getting a little bigger so I stopped with the ODing. But junk food isn't all great you can get sick. I know. So keep your chin up because there is someone out there for everyone. Your teacher and classmates are just jerks so don't worry about them. Try and look at the bright side of things ok. hugs

ImBob, you are wrong.thats what i mean, you say u eat 3 healthy meals each day and you are still hungry. This is becaues 3 meals is not enough. And by healthy I'm going to assume that you meal 3 full meals. Try this..split your meals up to 4-6 smaller meals thoughtout the day. that should come out to a meal every 2-3 hours. only eat till you are satisfied not overly full. The plan can be something like this:7-8 breakfast (small meal)10-11 snack (small meal)12-1 lunch (small meal)3-4 snack (small meal)6-7 dinner (small meal)9-10 snack (small meal)the meals should be healthy, low in fat(there are healthy fats that you body needs to use as energy also, thats why i didnt say no fats), high in protein, plenty of carbs (carbs give you energy, fuck what those atkins people say...look at them they have almost zero carbs and walk around like zombies) plenty of whole grains, veggies (fries and chips are not considered veggies!!), and fruits! Also cut out carbonated drinks, energy drinks, coffee. Many people dont know this but coffee slows the metabolism (if u notice most people who go into starbucks are overweight with the exception of the few anorexic looking girls) Drink at least half a gallon of water each day or lots of fruit drinks.heres a link that might help http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=492749

and smooches is right, fuck what other people think. once you make it out of high school you'll realize how much of a joke it is...everything!. The whole popularity shit in high school means nothing. Most of the popular people in high school end up not doing anything else afterwards. The girls that dont talk to you now, will probably talk to u later if u end up going to the same college with you. If you dont make friends in high school who cares, in college you'll find your real friends. What I recommend you do is keep studying hard and get into a good college, leave that lame excuse of a school and the city you live in. You dont wanna be stuck in a city with a bunch of people you knew and hated in high school. heck, try to get into a college out of state if u can. There are tons of people in your sitation who made it into college and I can tell you that every single one of thems lives have changed. They are all happy and stuff.

also high school life means nothing. No one is gonna give a damn what you did when u were in high school and if you were popular or whatever. After high school, if u can get into a nice collge u can start all over...you can make yourself to be whatever you want. Theres gonna be nothing but mature college students who dont give a fuck whether your overweight or not attractive or whatever.

For a 15 year old, 6 meals a day is not realistic. I'm in school all day, so I can't eat until lunch and after school I have band practice, so I can't eat then, either. Another thing is that I'm usually hungrier after I eat than before I ate and I don't think I could survive being that hungry all day long. Anyways, I'm healthy and I don't need any help or advice (thank you for the advice that you have given me), so let's focus on the main star of this thread.

ok sorry but i was making a point since u said what i said was not true. But it is true and it applies to the dude that I was trying to give advice to in the first place. Eating multiple meals a day is not difficult like everyone makes it out to be. Note that i said small meal, it takes less than 5 mins to finish a small meal. I dunno why u dont eat lunch during your lunch break but whatever. The snack part of the small meal can be something as simple as an apple with string cheese and cup of milk or a chicken salad with some juice. Or it can be a protein drink that can be made in advance that morning which will only take like a min (2mins max) to finish.

but yea I'm just trying to make a point. Split up your meals through out the day and you'll never be hungry. You'll never have the urge to want to eat extra foods when u know you shouldnt.