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Sometimes when we try to be witty we over-do it badly. I know I did. It's better just to be yourself. That's much more interesting.

grvtykllr> If you read all the shit he has posted all over this forum site youll notice that he doesnt exactly sugar coat things just for the sake of sparing feelings.I guess I'll have to agree with that. As grvtykllr said, middle school and high school are pretty sucky times in most people's lives. A lot of people have trouble fitting in. It really does get better. But if you're chronically depressed on top of that, it's really tough.Are you completely open with your doc? Does he/she really understand how you feel? Do your parents have any idea? If you feel as low as it sounds like you feel, you really ought to get hold of the doctor. At the very least, the Wellbutrin might not be doing what it's supposed to do.There are boring people, but I've never met an intelligent person who wasn't interesting.

I guess next time I go in I'll talk about upping my dose... though I don't see the doc that prescribes my medicine for another month...

Dude, if you're feeling the way you feel, you can't wait a month. And he may not want to up the dose. He may want to try something else.I think your best bet would be to see a psychiatrist. He'd be the most informed in prescribing antidepressant meds.But you need to discuss your situation with one of those doctors as soon as possible. Do your parents have any idea how bad you feel?

I know how that feels. When i was in highschool perticularly. PM me if you want to talk.

No matter what I have going on in my life I always make time when my kids come to me wanting to talk. try teling them what you feel and do it right away, nothings going to get better by letting it go on longer the sooner you deal wiht this the sooner you can get living a fuller life. as for uping doses its not about that. my g/f was diagnosed 3 months ago with high blood pressure and shes been changed to 3 different medications and uped the dose on oe of them. its not the same as what you have going on but its the same principal, not everyone reacts to each drug in exactly the same way, some work better for some people then for others its just a matter of working out what one works best for you and then gettig the dose right. it may not be easy and it may take some time to get it all right for any individual but the sooner you start talking and being open and totaly honest about everything the sooner you can get to that level and start being who you are instead of who other tell you you are

I see a psychiatrist and a psychologist...My psychiatrist I don't see for another month...And I think they don't.

In reply to: Once every three weeks wow! i have to see my new psych every week. b4 katrina my other psych had me commign to him 2Xs a week..

Yes sweetie, it's good. I myself tend to write poetry when I'm depressed or angry, it's a great out let for all your feelings of pain, sorrow, loneliness, and so on. Darling, don't ever think you're not worth it, because you are. From all the posts that I've read of yours you seem to be a really good kid, and I think the world could really use another good person in it (god knows there isn't enough of them out there). Keep your chin up sweetie, if you need someone to talk to, just PM me and I'll listen. hugs

Thanks... I try and I try but nothing seems to matter, though?!??!?!?!?!?!!

Forget about the psycholigist for now. You need to contact the psychiatrist ASAP.