Depression.....

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I just now realized how old this thread was, sorry. I only looked at the last few replies and saw they were somewhat newer so I went ahead.> Somedays it was so bad, I didn't even want to get out of bed. It hurt to breatheThat was me yesterday. I didn't wanna get out of bed at all cuz everything just sucked, and I didn't wanna have to deal with life.I've thought about randomly walking into some church too... I'm not really a believer in any god, for reasons of things that have happened in the past, but sometimes it'd be nice to know that there is indeed something higher than me that kinda has control of things. The idea itself seems silly to me, but desperate people do/think desperate things I suppose.One of my biggest problems I think is that I am too smart for my own good, or at least I think so. To try to explain, I'm gonna make this story real short. My entire life I've never been concerned with myself, cuz I didn't matter, not to myself or anyone else (I still think this, as you might've seen in my "hello" thread earlier).Anyways, since I never focused on myself, I always focused on others. In school, I would watch and "study" others and figure out why they do what they do, why they say what they say, etc. Call it psychology. After the years, I've become pretty good at figuring people out, and today I can pretty much tell what kind of a person someone is just by meeting them one time.Why am I saying all this? Because I'm also good at giving advice, and I know this. Other people recognize it, as is proven by the fact that people tell me their problems all the time, even if I just met them. I apparently give good advice too, but whatever.Because of this, I have a very hard time listening to other people's advice to me. I think I know it all. You'd think that recognizing this problem would allow me to do something about it, but I don't know what. So if I walked into a church and poured my heart out to some priest, I don't think I would be able to take his advice.Anyway, I'm glad it helped you though. That's one less person who has to suffer through this.> There is hope for depressionPete tells me this all the time. And I tell him the same thing every time... I might've had hope 10 years ago, but I've long since lost all hope.

This was a very inspiring story:). Im proud of u. Thanks for sharing. I'm very happy you went into the church instead of into the tree:(.

we're all proud...!There is hope... Really. I wouldn't lie to you about that

I've been lied to plenty of times unfortunately

NOT by me!!!

I'm sure given the chance you'll find a way to lie to me too, just like everyone else in my life.

your wrong! It's not my MOGiven the chance, I might prove you wrong. Im sorry you're so down

I'm afraid it's too late to give anyone a chance.And don't be sorry I'm down, I don't want other people being sad because of how I am. The sooner I accept I'll always be depressed, the better.

I wish I could reach you somehow...

That's the thing.No one gives a damn. The only people that might even care a little bit are online twice a week.I have no one, and it sux.I've tried hitting up a few older members, but we can't seem to meet up at the same time ever.