I don't get along with my dad at all. Over the years after we argue i always promised my self to hate my dad but i always got over it and continue my life normally. But after all the arguing it just built up to the point where i just don't care about him anymore. I purposely don't listen to him so it doesn't look like i gave into his demands. He isn't controlling, but he has anger problems and he is always in a bad mood when hes home and takes it out on me. He is always telling me what im doing wrong and how im going to be unsuccessful in life. He thinks im disappointing him cause im going to college instead of university. He has NEVER said anything nice about me ever. I never gave him a hug and i never shook his hand, no love what so ever. In the rare occasions when i do get along with him and im trying to act friendly it just feels down right awkward. He was always very strict about going to university and how if you don't go to university you will be a nothing. I should have never listened to that advice cause now that im older i realize that his is VERY ignorant and my life would have been alot easier and happier. I hide alot of my real thoughts and feelings to my dad cause im afraid if i tell him hes gonna snap and when he snaps he gets violent and sumtimes suicidal. If he wasn't so mentally unstable i woulda physically fought him many times years ago. I blame my dad for alot of my problems in life because i didn't have the balls to stand up to him when i was younger. Everytime i think about all the bad things he did i just feel like punching him. Right now though hes not violent like he used to. When i was a kid he wouldn't even control his anger. He would just do it without any thought into it. Probably because we were kids and he could boss us around easier and hes older now. But now that im an adult he isn't violent, but he is always in a bad mood and arguing. If ever snap against me or my family again im going to snap even worse.
Hate my dad
I agree with AW, you don't have to follow in his steps. Think about if you had your own kids. Would you want that for them? Snapping resolves nothing, believe me, I've snapped my fair share of times. Them I take a moment to meditate and realize that it just wasn't worth it. In the end, you gotta kill em with kindness, not violence.