Hi guys, I'm really willing to hear from you. I'm 23 years old, I had sex 3 years ago and then I got blood tested about 4 times after that, months, years later, and all tests negative.My psychiatrist says I'm OK, my therapist too. I asked a couple of epidemiologists and they say that if I don't have any STD, I don't have anything. They say the disease is on my mind.I just can't hang out w my friends anymore, I was cheerful once and now I'm quiet, disturbed. I get to see movies like The Bourne Identity, where the guy loses his memory and gets really scared about things he might have done in the past, and then he finally gets to Goa and stuff...Do I have to wait, like, 2 more years to get a relief that I really do not have a disease?I've spoken to doctors and they said that all new discovered diseases have a short time of incubation.My question is if I had sex 3 years ago, and my partner had this 'unknoun-disease-with-long-incubation'... there would be lots of people infected for longer time, right? Like, the supposed person that infected that partner, and the person who infected that person... there would already there signs of these suposed infections, right? I really can't have a day without thinking on this stuff. Please help me.Best regards,Strat
I can't stop making this conjecturations, HELP ME!
'unknoun-disease-with-long-incubation'Forget it, it doesn't exist. You're better off worrying about a safe falling on your head when you walk down the street. You're obsession is indeed a disturbed thought.Other than telling you it's all in your mind (which it is), does your psychiatrist have any other ideas? There are treatments for obsessive behavior and thoughts.
You need to calm down. It is good you are talking to a psychiatrist, you sound like you are really having a hard time and need someone to talk to. But seriously, you slept with one person. Did you use a condom? Probably not or you wouldn't be this freaked out. Look, you need to get on with your life and not worry so much, if you feel you need to get tested in another couple of years, then do it then, but worring about it for 2 years isn't going to do anything for you except break you down even more. You need a vacation or something. Most likely (4 test that = negative) you are fine and don't have anything.
I hope that this has taught you a lesson though, next time you are in a relationship, either don't have sex or use serious protection.
I really thank you guys for the attention... you do a wonderful job here.
I used to take some meds to control my obsessive-compulsive thoughts, but I have up on them. They used to put me in a slow-slow state of mind, I was depressed all the time. Anafranil was the med, It really drives u crazy in the begining of the treatment.
Well, I'll keep vising this site, as i said, you guys r doing a wonderful job.
I used to take some meds to control my obsessive-compulsive thoughts, but I have up on them. It may be hard to live with that med, but it's hard to live without it. I assume your psyciatrist knows that your off it. Can he find something else that's effective, but without those side effects?Edit: Anafranil is one of many antidepressants. Many (most?) antidepressants are effective to some degree for obsessive-compulsive behavior and thoughts. You need to keep trying until you find one you can live with.