I played Russian Roulette

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For the first time today. My one friend took me to this apartment to smoke pot and there were a couple of crazy tweakers there and one was playing with a revolver, opening the chamber and snapping it back. They were all fuckin' suicidal and shit and one was talking about how hardcore he was and took a bet to put a single bullet in and spin it around, he aimed it at his head and no one really tried to stop him, he had a fuckin gun afterall and to tell you all the truth we were a bunch of sick fucks who wanted to see a head explode. Anyways it went off with a "click" and we all took a breath. The other dude did it and it clicked too. Then because I wanted to show them I was a badass I took the gun, my whole body was shaking and I knew at that point I couldn't puss out or I'd lose all respect. Then I spun the chamber, put it back in and held my breath and I put it to my temple. A million thoughts were running through my head, there was a 1 in 6 chance I would not survive, part of me wanted that bullet in my head anyways while the other part thought this whole thing was fuckin' insane. So I clenched my face, squeezed the trigger...and obviously it didn't go off if I'm typing. After my turn we decided it would be fuckin retarded to keep going because no one wanted to be stuck with cleaning up brains and skull matter.This definitely changed my life. I could have just died and I feel awesome now.

YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT. STOP POSTING USELESS SHIT AND GIVING BAD IDEAS TO THE YOUNG KIDS THAT COME ON HERE. IF I WERE A MOD YOUR ASS WOULD HAVE BEEN BANNED A LONG TIME AGO

and I lay odds at 3 to 1 that between his past and this post that after a MOD sees this he will be.

I'm not telling anyone to do it, I'm just sharing my experience. I found it very theraputic though and I realized that since the gun did not go off I'm actually meant to do something here on this earth. It really gave me something to live for. I don't know why you all have to be so quick to condemn me. I suggest you try it though, but fill all the chambers.

I understand your post but uhhh why did you submit 3 identical posts ?
just really pissed and wanted to affirm your meaning behind the original post?

>>I suggest you try it though, but fill all the chambers

you do know your just begging to be banned don't you?

I don't know why I would ban him over this, but I agree... It's among the stupidest things a person could do. If you are suicidal anyways, I can see why you wouldn't care though. Not my life though.... Do what you want.

I don't see it as bannable either - if anything, it points up how stupid a thing it is to do. If any of those shots had fired, it would have been much less pleasant than cleaning up your friend's brain tissue from all the surfaces in the room.

I only see 1 problem with white_lines playing roullete.he is still able to post after.

actually I wasnt thinking of either you or SDP, I was thinking more along the lines of Helms seeing it after all the chats he has alrady had with lines over this type of shit.I can see whre the inforation in this post could be valid actually. I get the same feeling from free soloing and pending how harry of a clib from climbing wiht ropes. I can see how it point out how stupid it is.I have to doubt if its a real story or not in light of who posted it because of stuff Iv seen from him in the past (maybe Im thining of stuff from unforgetto ? admitant liar an such...)but I did not figure this post alone was worth banning anyone over, thats why I laid odds at 3 to 1 instead of lower because I was figuring only on helms and all the discussions hes had in the past over stupid shit like this. The possibility of Roc doing something about it occured to me as well but I figured only one of those two would implement anything near a ban or maybe a 'time out'

No, I'm pretty emotionless in the face of death. I live right behind a funeral home and watch them unloading corpses in body bags or covered in a sheet from an ambulance everyday while I sit at the table eating a bowl of Lucky Charms. Actually in the room everyone agreed if anyone got killed all the others would dip out so when the cops arrived no one else got pinned for anything and it would just look like a sucicide.We only played 1 round but had we kept going someone would have died, I'm not any good at math but how many rounds would it probably take for someone to get shot? Really though, the reason I am sharing this is because shaking hands with death has changed me. I feel obligated to do something now, like I said before I feel I have a purpose and it took a revolver to my head to show me that.

In reply to:No, I'm pretty emotionless in the face of death. I live right behind a funeral home and watch them unloading corpses in body bags or covered in a sheet from an ambulance everyday while I sit at the table eating a bowl of Lucky Charms. Wow, you are such a hard man.

did you ban him?

Oh, since we're on the subject. Any chance of me getting that "BANNED" title back? I was thinking maybe.. "BANNED VETERAN". Would that be cool? :grin:

Im trying to be patient and not ask for one, in hopes that i'll get one. its not working.

lol i like my title...suits me.

I was doing the same thing, but then I realised that I may not post often enough for my lack of title to be noticed, or for me to deserve one. So I asked nicely.

but im on when i work...which is like 16hours 7 days a week. so, not being noticed isnt the problem, im just not memorable.

Oh don't be silly, you are very memorable! Sure, I remember back in the days when you were first posting... ahh, how innocent you were.

I can't be on all the time cause my school's firewall blocks the site. But when Helms replied to tht guy who lost his password, I followed the links and found a way to turn my account in school to an Admin account. :grin:

You're banned veteran now

Exactly not like I broke any rules just sharing a personal experience that helped me.