I hate myself and want to die

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so i found out my girl is moving, she broke up with me, she said "it will be easier for me to move" that night i just felt like dying and still do, my chest has this empty feeling and it seems i will never get over her, i cry for her, i cant help it, is this depression and if so, will this feeling ever go away? it feels like it wont...

It allllwwwwaaaaaaaaays feels like it wont, but it will, and you'll 'love' someone else someday.

Its not depression, its heartbreak. You will get over it, so don't think about doing anything stupid like its the end of the world.

I know how you feel, I want to die everyday and have had so many times I actually felt like killing myself. The only reason I don't is really because I don't want my mom to have to deal with it. But at least you had a girlfriend, I never have because I'm a loser. Maybe I'm lucky though in never having lost anyone like that. But life is all about despair.

From what he has said in this particular post (I never read any others he may have made) I'd say that the two of you have nothing in common except for having rediculously stupid reasons to want to kill yourselves.

Moving away is painful. Loosing the one you love is painful. I'm sorry for your breakup. If this helps, I’ll bet she is feeling worst than you. She had to tell you she was moving and probably tried to save your feeling and despair by breaking up with you. She didn’t want to, it’s probably because she is moving far away and it wouldn’t be fair to both of you to try to keep it together when you’re separated by miles and miles. Call her and tell her you want to spend every spare moment with her until she leaves. And when she does leave tell her you will be there for her if she needs to talk. Where she is moving to, I doubt if she will have any friends. It will be nice to hear each other voice. If fate is on your side or written in the stars for you both than it will work out on its own.Be grown up about it and spend every moment that you can together. Let her know you still love her even though she said what she did. Chin up! Be there for her….instead of feeling bad for you…Wait until she leaves to do that. She needs to see your strength and feel your support right now….

i hate myself and i want to die! i have no friend, i'm stuck with study course that i hate the most, i went crazy everytime my friend go out and left me alone, i have no place to go not even my home, i'm unwanted, i hate it when i eat alone, i have to keep all problems to myself,i am pathetic. everyday i prayed for god to take my life.

In reply to: i have no friend What would be a good first step for you to make new friends? In reply to: i'm stuck with study course that i hate the most, Change your course of study. It's never too late. I have classmates who are in their 60's. In reply to: i went crazy everytime my friend go out and left me alone, Find fun things to do by yourself until you develop new friendships. In reply to: i have no place to go not even my home, Take a day or an evening and go exploring. Find new places to hang out. This might also help in meeting new people. In reply to: i'm unwanted, Consider the possibility that you might be wrong about this. When you develop new friendships, those feelings will change. In reply to:i hate it when i eat alone, Instead of looking at eating as a social event, begin to see it as a biological necessity. Something that has to be done. Like going to the toilet - something you do alone. When you develop new friendships, it can once again become a social event. In reply to: i have to keep all problems to myself, Spend some time making a list of all the people you know or all the people you see in a week's time. Look over that list and see if there aren't at least one or two people who would be good to talk to. Pastor? Priest? Teacher? Older relative? Guy at the coffee shop? In the meantime, continue posting here. You don't have to keep it to yourself. You can be honest here and there are people here who will make sure you are heard and who are willing to help as much as they can.This too will change as you develop new friendships. In reply to: i am pathetic No. You may feel pathetic, but I seriously doubt that you are in fact pathetic. In reply to: everyday i prayed for god to take my life. And I am right now praying that God will give you life.I hope I don't sound trite. I take what you are saying very seriously and I understand you. I just am hoping that you can begin to see the wisdom in picking the situation apart and, instead of looking at a big gloomy landscape, look at each piece and see how to deal with it. You can't deal with the whole. You have to deal with the parts. I also think the key thing for you right now is to be intentional about meeting people. That's hard, I know. But it is important, and possible, and will change things for you.

I don't see it as a ridiculous reason. I'm tired of being alone, it's either kill myself or do a murder spree on every kissing, hand-holding couple I'm forced to see everyday. I think I'm going to off myself soon, I can't stand this shit anymore. I'm sick of my life, sick of the same routine. That bullet is salvation for me.

AT white_lines..not the orriginal poster!!!! OP read his stuff please!You are only lonely when your alone...because you are in shitty company!Edit if you will mods, but I am tired of him...

Yeah and I'm always alone and sick of it. I took like 6 shots of Crown in a row about an hour ago and was planning to get drunk and jump off the bridge but ended up puking it all out, didn't mix well with the antibiotics I'd been taking for a cold I guess so I aborted my plan.

s1ick101...you will be ok.Break ups are hard. In time the empty will go away.Whit_lines....learn to like YOU!!! and quit trying to play on others sympathy!!!!

No, it's too late. I just can't do it anymore.

Can't do what? Playing on others sympathy!!??? WOO HOO!

Some people need understanding and advice. White..you suck the energy from us.

Nothing is ever too late. I've been in your position before. I have one of the most positive attitudes around now. When something somes to you that brings a negative vibe. push it away... move on.. get out of that situation. Live for you and only you.

I have to disagree, Steph (although I kind of get what you're saying).One of the best ways to beat depression is to get outside of yourself and make your life about others.Although...maybe what you are saying is that he needs to worry about his own health and wellbeing more so than the girls. That would make sense.

damien, thank you so much for your positive advice up there. sometimes i ashamed of myself for being such a baby over small things. thank you.

In reply to:Although...maybe what you are saying is that he needs to worry about his own health and wellbeing more so than the girls. That would make sense. Yes.. Ive done alot of improvements to my wellbeing.. I have a great job.. i've improved my appearance .. stopped doing stupid drugs.. It's all about what you can do to help yourself that makes a huge difference.

You're welcome! Glad I could help.We all have our moments.I have gone through several situational depressions and a major depressive episode. We all have our moments.This time next month you'll be passing on wisdom from your experience to someone else who needs to hear it.

I have fanantasies about the split-second feeling of the bullet touching the back of my throat as it's makes it way to my Cerebellum before my brains, skull matter, and pain all splatter onto the wall behind me. It's over, it's just a matter of time until I finally snap and do it. I've just given up hope. Fuck it. Might not do it today, probably won't tomorrow but eventually I will. Just can't live like this.