I've been puttting this off all day... it's not really depression, but I'm feeling like shit because of it.Basically, I was at my girlfriend's place alone this morning. We have a list of things that we'd like to do in her journal. I opened it to look at it (which I didn't feel bad about), but I inadvertantly opened it far earlier in the journal.I don't really want to discuss the contents in the open forum but it really shocked me. I knew bits and pieces about her past, but what I read really cut me up. She was pretty fucking depressed among other things.I can't talk to her about it, I mean I read her journal. These thing are now well in her past now but they are making me really depressed. I can't talk to anyone else about it. I don't know, is there anyone out there I could talk to?
Reading something I shouldn't
Firstly you should have not read her journal, and now its seems you are paying for the intrusion into her privacy by how its making you feel, i can tho imagine she would feel worse if she knew you had read it.What to do now is to forget it, if things were ok before you read it, then chances are SHE has moved on and so should you. The past is just that, the past, and you have to stop it affecting the present, or indeed you, or your relationship in the future.
Like the above poster said, let the past be. Unless it is somehow affecting your current relationship, I would let it go and if it is affecting you currently, I would just talk to her and don't tell her you read her diary. When she trusts you enough, I am sure she will talk about her past. You seem like you have a conscience, so before you snoop remember the guilt it brought you. I learned the hard way too, and turned down my chances to snoop since then.