For the last couple years...or so, just felt no motivation at all, just getting shit grades in school, not sure if I'll pass this year, and just having such a bland outlook on life. Don't get me wrong I have a very good life. I'm very 'anti-social', I pretty much have to mentally prep myself whenever I have to talk to anyone(except my parent). Even i dont talk to my step dad much, usually just mumble to him whenever he askes me something or talks to me directly. Also I have very bad anxiety. I have thought about suicide, would never do it though. Really I just dont care about anything. Off topic but, i rember my mom told me that bipolar(sp?) disorder runs in our family, i googled it and found that im very much like alot of the symtoms, doubt thats it though.Thats pretty much it, i could go on and give my life story but i dont feel like it. Sure none like to read me feeling soory for myself lol.
Mm, depressed maby?
Bi-polar is just one possible disorder; except that you don't describe the manic stage. It could be a unipolar disorder such as major depressive disorder.
More often than not, we keep seeing depression such as yours being a self-destructive cycle that usually starts with a chemical imbalance. You feel depressed because your body can't process the necessary chemicals in your brain; you feel down, which MAKES you feel more depressed, which affects your physical well being and further interferes with your brains ability to...well it just keeps going on.
You'll probably groan at this, but it would be best to get a referral to a psychologist...just try to avoid psychotherapy at this point. A minor dose of SSRI's (Prozac, for example) would be a good start to see if that helps restore the chemistry in the brain.
Yes. I would agree you should see a Psychologist or a credentialed Therapist.
The other thing I would tell you is that you should avoid the tendency or desire to treat any possible depression on a level beyond what you need. Meaning: you shouldn't be taking meds when you can be helped with talk therapy. Also (and I might be accused of pushing my own profession here...so be it) you will find that Therapists with the credentials like LCSW, CSW, LMFT, LPCC are typically less expensive then Psychologists but are extremely well qualified to deal with depression and anxiety. But if you have good insurance, that may not be a factor at all.