Im feeling rather down right now. The past year and a bit ive been working a nightshift in a supermarket, i sleep most of the day and most times i wont even bother getting dressed before going to work.I am lucky that i get Friday and Saturday night off and spend most of the weekend evenings out with friends etc but im usually rather tired and i dont have any 'bounce' I dont feel like my life is moving forward right now, i feel im wasting my life and although i dont think im quite at the level of depression there is a risk that i may in the future.I just have no motivation, no energy and im tired all the time i just cant seem to bring myself to start moving forward however much i want.At the moment i have some good friends but im seing less and less of them as they are all starting or have already started moving forward in their lives and i feel im trailing behind in a Town i dont like, working unsocial hours in my job and nothing to look forward to.I guess im just letting it out right now, i need to sort myself out, i need to move forward and i need to soon. The best way is to quit my job but im naturally aprehensive about doing that as a crap job is better than no job (it does pay well).Ive also developed anxiety issues from the recent lack of social interaction over the past year. Ive moved from a social animal to someone who goes as far to avoid unfamiliar social situations.I cant remember the last time i went out and not needed a shit, i spend my nights out constapated.I dont think anyone can tell me what i dont already know but to know people are in similar circumstances does help, im just not who i want to be right now. Ive been offered the chance to work in Spain over the summer and it could be my get out clause but i dont know if i can give up what crap i have here and go partying int Spain for 3 months
Stuck in a Rutt
Night shift is very tough on the body and mind. For a start, you don't get as much light, and that can bring on depression. You don't sleep as well, too.Giving up a job when you have nothing to go to is usually not a good idea, but staying in something that is bringing you down isn't a good idea either. I think it's time to look for another job. Why not take the Spanish job? It would broaden your experience and your resume. A change will do you a lot of good.