I am so happy!

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I just wanted to tell you all thank you SO MUCH! For all the support I've gotten over the time. I was very depressed for a while now, for far too long with everything going on about my uncle and my brother-in-law and my dad and... who else... some other stuff I can't remember. But I am so proud of myself. For too long I've been running and hiding away from my fears and being a coward and not speaking up for myself and taking the abuse. And I didn't realize that by not saying anything I was keeping so much cooped up inside of me it was like poison. I was taking it out on people who were closest to me and I was hurting them and myself. But I did it. I told my uncle off. I told him EVERYTHING. I told him every single insult he's said to me and how it effected me. I showed him every scar and bruise that I had from him. All the secrets I kept from my parents about what he did to me. But best of all I told him that I forgive him. And I let him know that even though he sees me as nothing and even though he hates me that I do and always will love him and that I know I'm worth something because God created me for a reason. I told him that even though he's prejudice, and biased, and degrading I love the skin I'm in. I love my country and I love everything I represent and I know I was created beautifully and uniquely. That took a lot of guts but I still said it lol. He was shocked, completely. He didn't say anything at all he just looked at me. I know I was crying like...OD but I felt so liberated and at ease. Like all that anger was gone. I didn't hug him or anything and he still hasn't said anything to me but I believe I did the right thing. I'm not even angry with him anymore. I don't see him as that big angry monster of beast anymore but just as a man who's probably been hurt in his life or went through something and that's why he took it all out on me. I know he's in trouble and that as much as he hates America and Americans he's scared to go back to Brazil. But I wouldn't even use that against him because he's only human. I don't know what he's gone through but I know I'm strong and independent enough not to let what he's said get to me. Yes it hurt alot and it did alot of damage but it's over. And I'm just so happy and at peace and I feel loved. But that's it. Just wanted to make that known and thank you guys again especially Eddie, and Amy, and Pete, and Armondo, and Lisa. You guys can't even begin to understand just how much your encouragement and concern meant to me. Like seriously you guys kept me from doing something I really would have regretted. So thanks again. I love you guys more than I love Lord of the Rings... and chocolate. And to my oh so lovable and irresistible Virtual Star. You are my sister from another mister. I love you to pieces. My love for you burns like a thousand suns! lolThough I won't be coming on too much because of school and work . Last year of high school! YAY! K I'm down. Eu te amo!! ciao!

I am very proud of you

That's awesome. I'm so proud of you. hugs It must have taken alot for you to stand up and say what you said

im proud of u... it takes alot of strength to do what you did, and your so much of a better person for it. good luck with your school and such. know we all love you, no matter what skin your in, your important to everyone who loves you.

much love -Kid

Good Job Abigail! I'm proud of you, and glad you finally stepped up!

Right on girl. Just because someone has a hard life doesnt mean they need to ruin someone elses.Im glad you stood up for yourself.

Thanks guys love you so much!

awsome possumI love to hear a success story

That is so wonderful Abi!! hugs I am just in so much awe of you. Not just because of what you said to your uncle, but because you are young and always stand up for your own convictions (even if I don't always agree with you ;)). I have learned more from you than any help I could have given you. You are certainly something special Abi. Good luck in your last year of high school!

I'm so glad. I'm proud of you, and you should be too.

Thanks so much guys. You're gonna make me cry stop! lol

I didn't know whether to make another post or not but I didn't want to waste anything... sooo I'll just add onto here. But I have more good news!

Remember my oldest brother I told you guys about that has been missing for like... a year. Well he called mi madre today and asked to see us! Honestly today was probably the second best day of my life. I hadn't seen him for so long. He looked so different. His voice was so much deeper but he still had the same sense of humour and you could tell he changed. But come to find out that he'd been in jail for a year for violating his probation :frowning: . I don't know how I never knew about this. He's so changed and so different. Like he's more mature and understands more. My mom was crying, I was crying, he was crying, we were all crying.

But we were so happy to see him. I screamed so loud and practically jumped him. I miss him so much and I know my sister can't wait to see him. She almost burst my ear drums when she found out he came back.

I feel like things are getting so much better for me after all this time. Things are starting to look up. Granted he missed out on the last 3 years of my life. He was shocked to find that I'm turning 18 lol. He was like "dang I need to get my cane!". Loser he's only 27! But yes I'm so happy... again! I feel like a huge load has been lifted off me because now I know he's safe. I just hope my family can come together again and be the way like it was before.

My older brother from down south had called me Friday and it was mad random I'm like... is there a special occasion? But he said he just wanted to say "hi" but then I found out it was because my oldest brother called him and I guess he wanted to know if he was with us. They've always been close and I think they were just so happy to hear from each other. My oldest brother said that he needed to go to jail because he needed to learn a lesson. He said that if it hadn't happened he might have been dead by now. Scary thought but I'm glad things worked out.

I told you my family is jacked up but hopefully that will all change very very soon because I haven't seen my nephew in FOREVER if he even still remembers me. =(

eh nobody can forget you abi, too awesome.and thats awesome hun im glad to hear hes doing alright

I'm so happy for you Abi. You are a smart, strong person. It's awesome to see you so happy again. You deserve the best! :wink: