A question I wonder... do you wonder too, do you actually even know?I've realized an awful lot of what I do was really because of someone else. Either pushing me into it, or just hype in general, and I realized I'm not really sure Who I actually am on my own.Example.While there are some games I actually enjoy myself on PS2/3 which I own, I noticed a lot of my games I bought because either they were hyped up, or I know my friends liked that style and it was 2 player so I got it really for them. I was just the holder. The real reason I realize I even got a PS3 was I know there were some games my friends wanted but they all had Xboxes so I got the PS3 mainly for them to be able to try it out. And while I admit there's 1 or 2 games here and there I enjoy. I probably wouldn't have got one otherwise.Out of 2000 PS2 games. I personally found and got on my own out of my own personal interests. 4 games.Out of I think 665 PS3 Games I can think of 2 that appealed to me on their own. And while I admit I enjoyed Resistance 2 (Shooter) It wasn't my style, and I only got it because I knew my ex liked shooters. And while I got into it, it was only because of her.Now, I understand a lot of people find out what they actually like/enjoy through other people. But I realize a lot of what I do/like is only because of other people, including stuff I just don't like, I do to be kept in a loop, or because everyone else does it. As a matter of fact here's the only things I decided that I do on my own and enjoy just because I enjoy it.Writing.Debating.Exercising.Drinking Tea.That's all really. Everything else was because everyone else was doing it, or it was pressured onto me and it became a habbit, or I decided it was fun enough.It really makes me wonder what I'm really like, and wonder what others are really like if they actually thought about it.
Who are you? ........ Who am I?
I think that's a reasonable list. So much of what we all like, and even more of what we do, depends on the society we are in. For example, Dutch children love incredibly highly salty licorice that everyone else finds disgusting - it's unlikely they all have a special gene that causes it, so it must be social.
I think our likes are not very close to our real characters, in any case.
But I realize a lot of what I do/like is only because of other people, including stuff I just don't like, I do to be kept in a loop, or because everyone else does it.
Thats what I did too.
This topic...I had thought about years ago and I found my "inner self" or my likes and dislikes. I have changed a lot since I found I was doing things just for the heck of it and to be accepted by others!! These days I dont care much if I am in "the loop" or not. I feel much better now than I did before.
i think it would make me happy if i did things because of other people, like close friends. I've done a lot of things on my own and now everything is now boring to me.
Don't be so hard on yourself. Part of growing up is learning who we are. We learn about ourselves by interacting with others and doing what's cool. That's how we fit in or feel like we're normal, if you will.... It's difficult to enjoy or like others if you don't like or enjoy yourself. Some people learn who they early in life, faster than some others... Sometimes people never learn that....
Dont be hard on yourself.