I Did It!! (woooooooo!)

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Oh my God. I don't usually say the Lord's name in vain, but seriously...oh...my...God. I'm a little bit excited, mostly petrified. I don't know what I just did. I'm going to feel soooooo embarrassed the next time I see her. I really do hope her response is, 'I like you too' or at least 'I think you're hot, but...' Pray for me guys. By the way, this is what I sent:So I've been trying to say something for a while now. I'm not good at this sort of thing, I thought I should go ahead and try. I've been told the straight forward was is the best. I like you, it's the romantic I like you. I'm not sure if you feel the same way. I'm not good at picking up on things either. I kept thinking about what would people say, but I'm going to be brave for once and see what happens. I just want to know if you feel the same way. Whatever your answer, please be HONEST. I'm not used to putting myself out there so I may be a little wierd the next time you see me.The end.

I hope it works out really well!

Awww that is so cute! Im so interested in what she has to say back, So if you could keep us updated that would be really cool =)

Yes, I will...even if it's bad.

Good luck, I hope all works out as you wish.

That fact that you had the guts to send that is admirable! I wish there were more guys like that. Three cheers!

It will all work out! Power of positive thinking!

*smiles*

TangleWeb is a girl, just so ya know.

Yeah, I am a girl.I'm really, really trying to stay positive.

Golly gosh what a boo boo! Sorry about that! But still very happy for you and I wish I could do that! (no offence taken I hope)smiles

No offense taken Sunshine....But boooooooo you guys, it was horrible. NO she only sees me as a friend and YES she has a significant other. I don't know what I was thinking, it was really dumb. I had this feeling in the back of my mind that I was just misreading things and she was just being friendly. I should have thought about worse case scenario of her not liking me the way I like her. We work together and now things are never going to be the same. I think I made the wrong choice.Today I lost track of time and left work later than usual. She was already there and she didn't say anything when I walked up or when I left. I knew she was either reading my message or had already read it. I didn't even want to check the inbox, I knew it was bad. I'm don't know what I'm going to do when I see her at work. I feel bad.I guess I got all excited about this fantasy, what I wanted to happen and forgot about reality. I asked for divine guidance so I could know if this was the right thing for me to do. I guess I have my answer, but I'm just not satisfied. This was soooooo stupid.I lied to her in my reply. I'm so embarrassed. I said I was fine, but it hurts and I'm going to think about it everytime I see her. I don't like this, putting myself out there. It hurts, I've had enough in the past. I take things too hard. I wish I could go back and undo the email. I liked the delicate dance we were doing. BLAH............

Aw shucks! Any chance you could try to pretend nothing happened and go back to the things were? Forgetting bout this kind of thing will take time, of course, but if you never put yourself in a situation where someone can say "no" to you, you will also never be in a situation where someone can say "yes" to you. That's not what you ant to hear right now though, is it? ...feel free to booo...smiles

I wish I could go back.
I supposed you're right. I need some positivity right now. I only hear one thing.... It feels like the end of the world.

I'm so sorry it didn't work out. It's not the end of the world, though. No matter what, life goes on and everything becomes water under the bridge and away into the past.

It was worth it though no? atleast your not gonna be dreaming about what could have been, you know there is no chance so now you can move on to the next person.

True, but I miss the way we used to talk. Nobody felt awkward. Today at work we didn't even say anything to each other.

I hope she didn't tell anyone at work about what I wrote to her, that would be embarrassing. I have a feeling that she has...I don't know.

And on top of that I'm still confused. I really thought there was something. One major deciding factor was when we worked together Tuesday. I was shelving some books and I noticed she'd walked up. She stood there and stared a little bit before she said anything. Maybe I just read her wrong. What do y'all think???

Don't let the awkwardness fester. If you want to salvage the friendship smooth things over with some self-deprecating humor then drop it. Humor, especially when directed at yourself makes a great mediator of uncomfortable communication.Acknowledge what happened with self-effacing, self-depreciating humor. Move the communication back to current topics and let what happened go.How well that works women to women I don't know but I've found, from experience, it certainly works man to women.The key is to acknowledge the awkwardness and get passed it.

Well yes, I assume she does have a female significant other. A while back I saw a girl come around where we work, but she didn't introduce her and on her other Facebook page she had mentioned she was with someone.I still consider her my friend, but I don't think were that close to talk to her about finding me that special someone.It's embarrassing because I have to see her all the time, and now it seems I seem her more outside of work. We still don't joke around like we used to. She doesn't really talk to me anymore. I think she might be worried about making me uncomfortable, so she doesn't say anything. Now, I don't want to say anything have her wondering if I'm flirting or something. I feel better now than I did after the aftermath. I'm just really annoyed that our interactions have changed.When she replied to the infamous email I sent, she said she considered me as only a friend and co-worker.

I'm not sure humor would work female to female, I'm not sure if it would do well male to female. I'd feel pathetic, besides I already feel too negative about myself.

It's such a sensitive topic to me, it's really not funny. I don't want to make it seem that way. I don't want her to think it was a joke, I hope she understands how personal it was to me. I want her to respect me, not laugh about me, the crazy girl at work, with her friends.
Maybe most people would say I'm just thinking too hard about this, I don't know.

I should try that, but that email is going to take a lot of guts to send.

I think so too. I don't want it to be this way forever.I was going to add in my last reply to you that I don't consider myself lesbian, I like boys too.