Am losing my entire life

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Hi guys how have you all been doing? It's been awhile since i have been on here. I've been so busy that I hardly have time to look at a pc screen unless it's for research.So the problem at hand,why am i losing my entire life? My daughter is here and am not allowed to see her. She was adopted by my aunt and husband so she is legally theirs but they promised that I could see her and be in her life.Anyway friday I asked for her for the night and I was refused that priviledge,my aunt then called me and told me to come and get her(remember I moved out and no longer live at my grandmothers house).So I travelled to the house and got the greatest shock of my life. My aunt said that she didn't want hosanna to grow up around me and she hoped that I would understand. She being her mother now,all she wanted was best for my child and in order for her to growup properly she could not be around me. It hurt me so much,what hurt the most was that when I walked in the door she ran towards me screaming "momma,momma" and my aunt grabbed her away from me. I wanted to yell at my aunt so much but my baby is standing right there and smiling at her mommy and all I can do is try the best to smile through my tears. They kicked me out of the house with the knowledge that I will never see my daughter again,what am I supposed to do?

I don't know the full circumstances, but a talk with a lawyer would let you know what options you have (if any ).

Do everything you can to stay in touch with your kid. Letters, notes, anything. None of it may get through but keep a journal and copies. It may do nothing to help you now, I don't know where you stand legally, but it may mean the world to the kid when their 17, 18 or whatever and want to know about their mother. Always send card and write in your journals religiously. Go the extra step and make a savings account that you can add a little to each month to help the kid when they get to college, that way you can demonstrate to young adult that you did care and that care went farther than simple words on a sheet of paper.Like I said, it may do nothing now but it'll mean the world to kid, young adult, who may wonder "did mom really care about me?"Keep that journal for the kid to have one day. It'll mean more and show more just how much you do care than anything ever could.You have my deepest sympathies.

Im not sure what happened, or what is going on in your life but it must be pretty bad to have your daughter taken from youI guess this is kind of a reality check. This should be what you think of to want to fix your life. Once you fix your life your aunt will see the changes and improvements and will probably allow you to be part of your daughters life.

I have never done nothing in my life. What did i do except fuck around(excuse my language) ang got pregnant and her father didn't give a damn. I know all da bullsit about listening to my mother but i made a mistake and that is that. I had my baby an then decided that i was going to make a better life for her with or without her father's help. Don't talk to me about reality check because there is nothing,nothing that i did to deserve this. I go to school all day then work a lousy job at night,I don't sleep, i hardly eat and I havre no time for myself,I do this all to make a better life for us.Tell me what it is about my life that I have 2 change and fix. I don't take drugs , I stopped any future ideas of consumption of alcohol once i found out that i was going to be a mother.Am sorry that i sound so snappy but what did i do 2 deserve the fact that the child,my princess, I carried for ninemonths,38 hours of tireless an painfull labour and 26 stitches 2 show 4 it,is being taken from me. Am mad, i gave birth to her not them,me so why on earth should they take her from me.My aunt can't have any.

Why did they take her from you?

She was adopted by my aunt so that I could done with school,but now am not allowed to see her

im not really understanding. why would u allow your aunt to adopt her?

I guess you didn't read the very first post right? Am 17,I was underage,I have to go to school,at the time when they appealed to me to give her a better life I said yes. I had just had a baby,I was scared and alone and I refused abortion and giving her up to people I didn't know. So I allowed my aunt to adopt her so at least she could growup comfortable.

Obviously I read the first post considering I replied to it. I just assumed there was more to the story because most family members wouldnt do that.

Apparently your not familiar with the old expression, "The closer the kin the deeper it goes in."

She can't have kids,she wants them.