This is been going on for a while..........everytime I used to meet my bf I would dream of rape that night. I dont know why this is happening but I often wake up with the urge to scream like hell and check if I am still in my room or not and if anybody's there. In the dream the victim sometimes is me but often its somebody else, Sometimes it is a gang thing sometimes it is my bf. Its driving me nuts and scaring the hell out of me. Can anyone tell me why I am dreaming of this stuff?
Is being raped something you fear alot or is it kind of random? When I have nightmares about 99% of the time it is based around my worst fears like being physically attacked by something I can't see, or a family member dying. Mine usually feel extremely real too. Like i'll start crying when I wake up and have to run around the house and check (or make phone calls) to see if people are still alive.
For some reason it also helped to recognize some running themes that occur in all of my nightmares. In my case my parents, in the dream, never believe me when I tell them whats going on...
By doing that it just helps me realze a heck of alot faster that it was just a dream and I get over it quicker and dream about it less.
I dont have the fear of being raped........but I have been in real bad situations with men esp few of my older cousin brothers and few ex-friends (who were males) during my teens and recently as well.........I got over the things pretty fast and dont think about them much.
But maybe it's a repressed memory coming out. Even if you got over it, and don' really think about it, subconsciously you may be. Through your dreams, it may be saying, that it's still an issue, and needs further examination, and so you can be comfortable with it, and think about it more, rather than not. I find that the more you try not to think about something, the more you actually think about it. Maybe you just need to re-open the issue, and just examine it, a bit deeper this time.