During the summer i was really looking forward to my junior year in high school, the school year is almost over and it's nothing like i wanted it to be like, i blame myself though. I've been really looking forward to college, and what it holds for me, but lately i've been thinking that i'm just going to be disappointed, judging by how life is going for me right now. I feel like i need change in my life, in order for me to be satisfied with it, but i just don't know how to start.
I feel like life isn't going the way i'd like
I thought every year of high school was going to be better than the last but it never was. Looking back at all the drama and stupid stuff people did, I still think high school sucked. Just work hard and push through it and things will become completely different and life will throw you a whole new set of challenges once you finish and, believe me, it's going to be quite a ride.Do you know what you want to do for the rest of your life? Have you applied to a college that offers a degree in what you're after? If you are doing something that you enjoy doing every day, college will be the best years of your life. That's not to say it's going to be nothing but fun. You'll probably end up taking a bunch of senseless general education classes (if you don't have all the credits already) and you probably won't like most of them. You'll have professors you don't like, you'll probably be rooming with people you can't stand but in the end you'll find it was all worth it. Sir Winston Churchill is often misquoted as saying "Never, never give up!" at the Harrow School during a famous speech of his in 1941. I have a poster with those (incorrect) words written on it hanging above my desk and any time I don't think I can continue, it gets me through.
I guess thats true, i mean i do know what i want to study, even where i want to go and where i want to live. I'm just really scared that that's not the way its going to be and that i'm just going to be disapointed like i am right now.