My ex and I are still friends. We talk and still hang out, go places together sometimes. I want someone to fool around with. I miss making out, touching, and getting off with someone. I don't feel like getting to know someone else or working to trust someone. I don't want to get back in a relationship with him, we're a bad match (our personal interests and view points are total opposites). I don't even know if he'd be down for it...just a thought I guess.Good or bad, what do y'all think?
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Should I fool around with my ex??
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If you do, he'll think you want to get back together, I think. I wouldn't advise it.
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It's probably a stupid idea.
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Too late, it's been done. He asked me to go to his friends birthday party with him. He's much more bold/assertive when he's been drinking. He grabbed my hand, kept trying to get me to dance. Since he had been drinking, so I said it was okay for him to stay over. I get in the bed and he puts his arm across me. I just lay there kind of frozen, then I got kind of emotional and started to cry. He asked if he could kiss me, but I shook my head and I was crying a little. I really like him, I like him before he broke up with me and I was really broken when it happen.He was trying to kiss me. Then he whispers that he promises not to hurt me again and that I didn't trust him. I shook my head. I don't, but I couldn't even speak. We ended up making out and stuff.From what we've talked about before he seems to be still in love with his ex. He's an Atheist (I'm Christian), he doesn't want kids (I'm undecided), he doesn't want to get married (I'd like too, but I'm probably not cut out for it), I want to trace my roots, care about society, media, and culture and how it effects kids (especially young black girls) he doesn't seem to think it's important.Now I'm struggling with the confusion of having feelings for someone that doesn't seem to be a good match. There's chemistry, attraction both physical and personality wise. I really like him. How to I make sense of that?? I want to question him about what he said, but I don't want to rush it or bring it up first. I want to see if he remembers what he said. I've noticed his message (via Facebook) have changed tone. I'm sure he knows we have crossed that line line, the line we said we wouldn't cross. I don't know what's going through his head.