Im not sure why im posting this. I guess i just needed to let some things out. I know there really isnt anything anyone can do,but i guess being able to talk about what im feeling helps me cope a little easier.Losing both of my parents so close together has really hit me hard.I dont even know how to cope with it. Is living my daily life copeing? I just dont feel like im dealing with things well.Ive been trying to keep busy with remodling and things and trying to keep my self pity to myself.And that isnt working.I dont think ill ever be able to accept it.I have a lot of anger towards my parents doctors. And i have a fear of someone else becoming ill and not being able to trust the doctors to help at all. I have lost all faith in them.I knew that some days would be harder than others,particuarly holidays.My mothers birthday is in 4 days. Im really losing it. I should be out buying her a gift not standing at her grave site greiving..She would have been 59.She was really the most sweetest, careing ,unselfish,loving person ever.My dad was quite, sweet and really funny.They made such a great couple.I cant get the images out of my head of them suffering.That will always haunt me.Life truly isnt fair and it really sucks to be me.
Feeling pretty bad.
I wish I was there to give you a hug right now. Everything will be all right. You can always e-mail me if you need someone to talk to.Your Friend-Frank
awww im really sorry for your losses...but dont worry things will start to turn around, just know that they will always love you, and they know you love them, and there always with you in your heart, their spirits will never die, you carry them with you each and everyday, they will always be there for you...they will always love you