My parents saw my cuts

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In reply to: maybe she has more will power than you guys? Obviously coming from someone who has never really suffered In reply to: maybe the urge aint as bad? Again please see above In reply to: things should be viewed on a continuum you know; not in terms of black and white,variables like that are rarely polarised. Generally, with thing like forms of self harming ARE the same for most people.You could ask anyone that knows me and they would all say I am the least likely person to suffer with depression, especially with self harming. Even though I’ve been doing it since early teens.I Just can’t see how someone can say they “self harm” and then think that they need to think that they can’t do it because they might be wearing shorts because of summers coming.Self harm is very hard to explain, I can’t even now. But not ONCE have I ever thought that I can’t do it because I’ve got dive club during the week and that someone might see the cuts in the changing room. ANYONE who has self harmed for a “long period of time” WILL say the same thing. You don’t “think” when your doing it, but rather the next day when you need to “hide” it.

obviously thats coming from someone who hasn't suffered???
initially that angered me.
but i guess if it were true i'd be a much happier person.

again you are seeing things as being polarised.
everyone suffers diver.
some more than others.
i wouldnt want to be cutting myself,but trust me dude,i have my own problems.
you were overly presumptious to say otherwise.
my pain hurts worse than yours.
ever hear that expression?
i dont live by that.
but i'd guess you do from what you write.
want to perhaps ask me if i've suffered before saying something so groundless?
and you cant understand how omeones patterns can differ from your own that really phases me.people are not homogeneous,if they were then well,giving advice and counsel to others could be really a matter of it worked for me it'll work for you.humans are not like compounds man.we're all made up differently and our actions and habits are unique though they can be generalised to a point.BUT it stops at that point and no further.
you went to far.

i felt really bad about how everyone thought i was lying, i was thinking about just avoiding posting here. i really don't know what i can say about this. i'm not lying, and it sucks that i have to say thati've never wanted anyone i knew personaly to know that i cut myself, and when my parents found out it felt horrible. in my mind it made sense when i decided that i wouldn't cut in places where people are likely to see...i thought it was a good idea.maybe you're wrong, or maybe i'm just different.. all i know is that i AM in pain, and i do have scars that are gunna be hard to hide this summer.i have scars on my legs and arms, so i'm worried that they will be seen oftern this summer. CR125 said he was able to prevent himself from self harming, and if he's capable of stoping completely i don't see why it's hard to believe that somone would want to hide his problem..grr i dunno this isn't right forget it...just so you all know, i'm probably not going to post here anymore, i don't even know what i wanted from coming here, maybe just for somone to listen or understand? i dunno i never wanted this thanks for sticking up for me secret

i haven't stopped. i'm tring...not easy. but i'm trying and my parents do know. i'm going ot PM u. i don't want to talk about it here. i swear it want be me yelling at u either loljust cuz i type lol don't mean i'm laughing

In reply to: i felt really bad about how everyone thought i was lying, i was thinking about just avoiding posting here. i really don't know what i can say about this. i'm not lying, and it sucks that i have to say that as i said in the PM to u no one knows but you. you shouldn't care if some one believes you or not. u know the truth about u.and to be hounust...this..." i've never wanted anyone i knew personaly to know that i cut myself, and when my parents found out it felt horrible. in my mind it made sense when i decided that i wouldn't cut in places where people are likely to see...i thought it was a good idea. makes more since than the summer thing. oyu shouldn't stop comming here becouse some people "might" not believe you. hell if that was the case i would have been gone a year ago. lol every one here thinks i'm a bull shitter..exept the people that matter to me. they know the trth. and they know me.

I have a few friends who did it...one of them even attempted suicide a couple of times. They were always lucky though, a friend called them when they were about to, and they said "just don't do it too bad"...they trusted the person not to kill themselves. Cutting is something that shouldn't be used...but some have to...I think you should try to find another thing to do...or another person to lean on, good friends are good things...

who said they didn't believe you?

Quacks, it's so hard to understand people when all you have are typed words in a forum. Don't leave this forum because people misunderstood you. You'd be surprised how much people that have never met you could care about you. Bear with us. There will always be someone willing to help you, even if their first impression of you bears little resemblance to your true self. I think there are people here that want to help you.

I might be able to help. I use to cut my self alot. I didnt scratch with razors though i used glass and always need stiches. I never thought about doing it, i just did it, as a way to deal with stress. I didnt care where i was, i didn't put down a towel or what not, i just did it. Not to be mean, but if you are truly using it for a means of relief and not just attention, there are other ways. No one feels the cutting either, thats normal. Try refocusing you're frustration, thats the best harmless thing you can do. For me i went from huge deep cuts, to reckless sex, to punching glass repeatedly, now i dont do anything. I just calm myself down and relax, i think about something else, as hard as that is your first time, it does get easier. Cutting is the easy way out, try taking the hard way for once, deny yourself that simple pleasure and use something thats not going to disfigure you, because you may think they're cool now, but if you ever start cutting deeper, which if u keep going, you're gonna have to, its gonna start looking disgusting, and one day that really will bother you. Trust me, I've come from the same thing. I was diagnosed bi-polar and borderline, i cut i did it all like i said, but i just kinda stoped, with time and faith it went away. First just ask yourself that honest question. WHY? only u can asnwer it and be honest, the rest will come. Best of luck
NED

That's a great post, Ned! It is realistic and based on experience, and should give a lot of people hope.