This is such a long story, but i ask that you read it all as it's all part of my problem (not just blabbering).
I met this girl in Grade 3, and we were best mates. She left the school at the end of the year and i didn't see her until i went to high school (grade 7) where we got along straight away again. We got so very very close.. Joking around, etc. I only considered her as a friend. Anyway, she started going out with my other best friend (obviously a male). Over a few months, i started to get jealous; Because me and this girl were getting even closer than before in terms of friendships. In early grade 8, she broke up with my mate; And that night on MSN Messenger we admitted that we liked each other. Deciding to wait until this guy had gotten over the loss of his girlfriend before going out, he found out and got pretty angry (he apparently thought they'd never broken up). So, they were together again, and i'd lost a chance. Me and this girl continued to be good friends, really good friends.. And slowly she revealed she had fallen in love with me, and that i loved her also. Although staying with my mate (because she loved him too), She was comparing us.. Trying to find out who she loved more. However, she said she loved me like a brother. At the end of the year, we got EXTREMELY close, and we kissed.. While she was still going out with the other guy. So it was our little secret.. That pulled away our friendship. We weren't comfortable around each other anymore, and i couldn't connect with her much anymore. A few weeks ago, (I'm in mid-grade 9 now) she broke up with my friend. Last week.. He found out we'd kissed. He got really angry at me (and so did his friends.. they all hate me now) and now it seems the girl i love hates me too.. DENYING SHE EVER LOVED ME. She really isn't that type of girl, she doesn't pretend nothing happened if she didn't want it to. I now feel so bad that i took a BROTHER_SISTER RELATIONSHIP Further, trying to make it a BF/GF Relationship.
I'd do anything, absolutely anything, to have a brother-sister relationship with her.. Forgetting about the past. However, she has blocked me on MSN, she is only in 2 of my classes (in 1 of them her ex-bf is in there too with her all the time), and at school she's with her ex-bf and his friends all the time.
I'm looking for advise on how to be her friend again. I don't regret what i did, it's part of growing up and learning what life can do, etc.. But I so wish the problems were fixed and i was her best friend again. I realised what i'd done, and now i love her so much but as a sister. And the fact she's been real depressed with family issues and stuff makes me just want to reach out and look after her.
Thankyou so so much for your time, I will accept any advice given :smile: