My girlfriend and i have been dating for 6 months now. in fact, it is almost our 7 month aniversary (i know its a small accomplishment, very small, but im pretty happy about it!)
anyway... getting to the point, she was my first. I am no longer a virgin anymore.
she on the other hand has been with one other guy. i dont know why, but this still bothers me even after this long! i know i shouldn't feel this bad, but even now i wish i could be her first as well.
perhaps it is because my cousin and his girlfriend who are getting married soon were each others first? (we talk about alot of personal stuff). They've been dating for 7 years now and i dont have anythign on that.
i dont know. it's just randomly i'll think of this sometimes (like now). i know im a wuss, and it is a little upsetting.
anyone else sometimes feel like this? i know having sex with one guy isn't bad at all considering these days.
one of my friends reminded me of what my values used to be. he said he wanted a girl that was a virgin as well, like the books you read in english class. full of innocence! i once was exactly like this.
so my question is:
-am i wrong for feeling this way? it isn't really that bad, is it?