Hi everyone, well as of lately I've been having suicidal thoughts again. I know this sounds stupid of me, but it's all because of a girl. The story starts about 2 1/2 years ago when we started going out, like all couples we had our ups and downs and usually more than usual but when we weren't fighting I felt like the happiest guy in the world. But as it eventually happens, she breaks up with me during the month of school right before summer starts. She gives me no reason for why she broke up with me and only says because she just stopped loving me and didn't like me anymore after being together for 2 years. So during the summer I tried to move on and forget about her, but I just couldn't so I would call and talk to her every chance I got until she stopped picking up. Well 3 months go by and school starts again and I start talking to her during lunch every chance I get. Everytime I went to talk to her I couldn't stop smiling, I was just so happy to be able to see and speak to her. Then friday comes and she tells me she has a new boyfriend whom she refused to give me any details about. So then I found out from her friend that they have been going out for awhile already and and that he dosen't go to school which I assume he's in his 20's. Just to clarify our ages, I am 16 and she is 17 now. So as the story goes I decide to walk to her house at 8 o'clock in the dark to find her, but I ended up walking home and calling her and having her new boyfriend pick up the phone. It sounded like she was at a party and having the most fun time ever. I swear, I felt like dying at that very moment, I just couldn't believe that she had moved on so quickly after being together for 2 years, it seemed like I was the only guy she'd ever love...Well, here I am the next day typing about my crappy life. I still love her and I can't seem to let go. I'd rather die then let go of her. But hearing about this new guy makes me feel like I'm already dead.I am crazy?? What is wrong with me?? I just can't seem to cope with all this. She was probably the only reason I ever got out of my house and did stuff, and I enjoyed every moment of it. I'm sorry for whining so much but I just feel like I have to talk to someone about this. I've been thinking on and off about how I would cope with things, and I just end up with a gun or walking into traffic. I just need some help.
I don't have much to say, but I would suggest trying to forget about it and if you feel the urge to suicide stay away from sharp things.
Give it time things will get better. I mean I lost the girl I had a heavey crush on that I want to say I loved, but I dunno. I had to hear and suffer that she was raped, horrible stories about her mother, and then I finally had to feel the pain of the fact she actualy liked me back.
Its been 5 years, I now have another girlfriend, and several other things that make me happy, thought I still care about her and wish I had her back, I know its not going to happen, but slowly things are getting better.
but who knows, in your case she could decide one day she liked you more then her new boyfriend and break up with him and go back to you, you never know, but if you suicided then you wouldn't have that chance, and if it doesn't happen I'm sure it will get better, if you give it time.
If not seach for a picture of me and throw darts at it or something, thats what I do.
Aww. That sucks well my advice would be to ask another girl out. Maybe she can help keep your mind of her. Who knows? Maybe you will eventually really like the girl you ask out
I disagree. I think if you are really depressed and still really love this other girl, there's not much chance you will be able to hold up a good relationship right now. I think you should just give it time.