well. I've been really pissed off. and this whole rant might not make sense but im not editing it or going back and changing anything I'm just getting it out of my system.
Well, one of the main things on my mind is my low self-confidence/esteem. I don't know why i just feel inferior to everyone in everything. I'm a senior in high school and my gpa is like 2.2 my SAT's were 1160 (which is normal i guess). But I'm doing terrible at english because I think whatever i write is going to be stupid. I need english to graduate but i don't even know if i can pass it trying. I am trying i just can't do it. It's even worse because my girlfriend has like a 3.6 GPA but she hasn't taken SAT's. She's never been in a college prep class while i've only not been in college prep twice. (college prep is lowest level for non-sped). She has such an easy time writing too. She does everything and she does it her best while I'm afraid and i get bad grades and such. It just makes me feel a whole lot dumber than her. she always tells me how I'm smarter than her though. She also hangs out with her ex boyfriend who she says she never even truly liked but he's still like madly in love with her or some shit with emo away messages. He's just her friend but I don't feel comfortable with her going to his house at all. especially if she's in his room with him and she's like sleeping on his bed. the only person she should lie in bed with is me. I hope she doesn't. There's also my mom. ughhhhhhhh. My mom is like seriously trying her hardest to make sure me and my girlfriend never do anything sexual(which is stupid I'm 17 if i want sex i'll have it. I know what a condom is im not dumb she treats it like The world will absolutely end if i have sex like she definitely will get pregnant no matter what gahh). She tells me im stupid from time to time. tells me the best ill be doing next year is community college. she thinks that when i miss the bus in the morning that it's a giant sign of immaturity and irresponsibility. Although I have my license and we have two cars(ones not registered). i offered to pay for her to register that car too. Driving to school would make it a lot easier