Last year my family moved out to Western Australia. My aunt,uncle and cousins. They were like my second parents. Not a day goes by where I don't miss them, even though they have an amazing life, I long to be in WA with them. I miss them so much it hurts so badly and I don't know how to cope with it.
I visited them for 3 weeks and I've just returned home. Those 3 weeks were the most amazing 3 weeks of my life, and I know I want to be there. When we had to say goodbye...it was heartbreaking. I cried through security, through departures and onto the flight. How am I supposed to cope with something like this? I know it's amazing for them, and I've seen for myself that they're really happy, but does it make it any easier for me? No.
I feel so selfish to think/feel that too.
Also on the flight home, I was feeling nautious, so I got up and tried walking down the aisle to the toilet, ut I was walking all unstable and I realised I couldn't see, stumbling I fell to the floor, and I remember collapsing, but nothing afterwards until I came around with worried flight attendants bent over me.
So I was also wondering if me getting so upset about the departure could have caused that incident?
But yeah, I miss them. I love my family here and my life here of course, but I long to be there. When I was coming home, the one bit I did actually want to leave for was Him, the guy that hasn't left my dreams, even though he might not feel the same way. If he goes out of the picture that I'll definatly want to be away :P