Well, here I am. 19 years old. Still a virgin. I've been diagnosed as having depression for the most part of my life. Am I now just beginning to see how things are? Am I just really that insecure and people don't really care about the things that I think they care about a lot? Have I been living completely wrong? I've been living in a fear that I will always be alone and that I am so strange compared to everyone else. Is it just me? I feel like I may be like this because I didn't socialize much until my junior year (when I was 17...). Have I been living in such a deep insecurity that I have failed to see the world through which it should be seen?Life is a complete tornado of emotions for me right now. I don't know what to do or how to think anymore.I am not sad. I am just really confused about everything right now.
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This is going to be a really strange post...
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There's no one right way to live, or to think. People are all different and there's no-one so strange that no-one else is stranger. Having said that, it's worth considering that depression does make us see the world through a filter that magnifies the bad and diminishes the good in the world, and it looks a lot better without that filter.
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I've been smoking marijuana lately, and it has helped ease depression for me. But it has also made me feel really weird emotionally. I've been diagnosed as depressed by 3 different psychiatrists. They put me on a drug called Celexa. I don't want to be depressed. Is it possible that I have always had a chemical inbalance in my brain causing this and I need some kind of medicine to help me? I took Celexa for a while and it didn't help. I think I should schedule another appt with my psychiatrist...
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There's nothing wrong with being a virgin.I find that really ridiculous that doctors say you're diagnosed with depression for the rest of your life. And that's not something to say for you but for those crazy doctors. I'd shake that comment off if I were you.Honestly, you answered your own question. Maybe you should try socializing more. I consider myself a weird person. May not seem like it on the web but outside this computer I'm a complete nut job but I think that's what people like about me and I can't help being that way. Try lightening the mood for yourself. Can you think of what it is that gives you reason to be depressed and melancholic? I understand the insecurity because I still have trouble dealing with that too. But try looking at your life and finding what is it that you are so depressed about. You have the power to change this around for you. You are NOT going to be depressed for the rest of your life. Seriously you probably have so much more going for you. Don't accept what that doctor said. Load of crap.
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thanks dude. that means a lot. its just hard for me to believe that people see me as a normal person when everything I do or say sounds so exponentially stupid to myself. I think I learned tonight that I am just really worried about if I am acting stupid just because I am self-conscious about everything about me.
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There is nothing special about being "normal". Who wants to be normal? You being different what makes you so unique and special and probably what people like about you. Don't try to change yourself so you can "fit in". You're best just the way you are. The worst thing you could do is conform yourself to normality. I act stupid all the time. I know I'm not stupid but I definitely have no problem acting stupid. Stop caring about what other people think and just be yourself. True friends and a true girlfriend will love/like you just the way you are. Just let go and be.
And this dude is a dudette. lol
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Originally Posted By: JapanFan14
There is nothing special about being "normal". Who wants to be normal? You being different what makes you so unique and special and probably what people like about you. Don't try to change yourself so you can "fit in". You're best just the way you are. The worst thing you could do is conform yourself to normality. I act stupid all the time. I know I'm not stupid but I definitely have no problem acting stupid. Stop caring about what other people think and just be yourself. True friends and a true girlfriend will love/like you just the way you are. Just let go and be.
And this dude is a dudette. lol
you're right =) thanks dudette!
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I suggest going back to the doc and finding some drugs that work for you, if that's what you want. You may not need them forever, they could just help you get to a better, happyer, place in your life where you could eventually come off the antidepresents and be able to cope on your own.
As for being a virgin at 19, I didn't have sex untill I turned 19 and I know people who were alot older then that. There's nothing wrong with not having sex.