Its just me!!

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Remember I'm not familiar with the laws where your at and not familiar with your culture either, so I'm gonna ask what's holding you back from pursing at least one of those paths? Further I'll ask for differentiation of what's illegal and what's just culturally forbidden.

Lets just say "girls are for fucking, making babies, cooking and cleaning". My ex bf used to scream when I walked fast or ran.......he thought getting me pregnant would be a danger to his baby due to my activities.The govt is helping women a lot here.......nothing is illegal here. Its just that some poeple dont accept changes.Whats keeping me from pursuing my happiness is 1-finances (dad's gotta pay my fee), 2-I am not eligible to join most of the reputed colleges due to my age, 3-my mom and dad want me married ASAP.Worst part I had saved up some money (from my allowances) and mom checked my accounts and took it all As far as the dog house and other things...........those are what I am busy with and doing right now.

What is your age?Do you think you could find a job somewhere away from your parents? You may have to come to terms with the facts that you'll have to take some scary and difficult steps to get where you want to go. But the fact of the matter is your ultimate happiness may depend on it. The comfortable route isn't worth it if it doesn't lead you down the path you want to be on.

Its 26.My parents dont let me go out without their permission for some serious personal reasons (I dont wanna talk about it on forum). I always have an escort (bodyguard in a sense....lol) with me......its usually one of my cousins or my parents themselves who accompany me or previously my bf. I wont be allowed to stay away from my parents or someone they entrust me to (for babysitting me) even for a single day.I have always been kept under watch since I was a little kid and came to live in the city where I currently live. I am not kept under watch when I go to other cities or countries......I am left free to do as I please even go out alone.

In that case wouldn't moving to one of those places you were allowed to roam by yourself be an option? Moving by yourself that is. Or is that too much?

The other place is "Iran" and its not a safe place to be right now Its an option but I am worried I wont be accepted easily there esp due to cultural difference.I have plans to move to another country (new Zealand or Canada) but its gonna take some time.I tried other cities within my country......I dont like them I wont be allowed to move alone.......if I go I will have to go with someone--my parents or my aunt.

I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder as well. I know how you feel to an extent, especially about the people not understanding what I mean when I talk. It's like I can't put it in a context so they can understand it but I know what I am talking about. I daydream a lot, too. I think that's why I am about to be diagnosed as A.D.D. I think we will do anything to escape "reality", but I have no clue what reality is. I think reality is society-oriented. But that's just me. Anyway I hope you can make it. Just remember that there is someone out there who does care about you even though he doesn't know you. Don't kill yourself. You have too beautiful of a mind.

Originally Posted By: droppydeesI think that's why I am about to be diagnosed as A.D.D.I was said the same thing by a psychologist.......but I refused any therapies he wanted me to go through with. Quote: I think we will do anything to escape "reality", but I have no clue what reality is. I think reality is society-oriented. But that's just me.I always think the same too. Reality means nothing to me but I try to keep in touch with things around. Quote:Just remember that there is someone out there who does care about you even though he doesn't know you. Thanks......I care about you too .......I do remember you from another thread my friend Hope things are fine in your life.

Originally Posted By: SayaIts an option but I am worried I wont be accepted easily there esp due to cultural difference.I have plans to move to another country (new Zealand or Canada) but its gonna take some time.What's it going to take for you to be able to get to one of these places? What are you doing pro-actively to make that happen? You don't need to answer just think about it.

Originally Posted By: OldFolksWhat's it going to take for you to be able to get to one of these places? What are you doing pro-actively to make that happen? You don't need to answer just think about it. I will answer it. First of all I had to make my parents agree and I have been trying on that and as a result they have saved up some money too. I have been talking to people and asking about stuff, collecting info to make it happen and choose a place to go to. If I opt to move to Iran I can do it within a 3-4 months but making a move to other countries will take me a year or more I still have a few projects at hand which are a priority and I may have to divert finances to finish them.......thats whats gonna take most of my time and postpone my move.