I don't know what to do. This is bad.
Yea. It may have something to do with my period. I've had it since Wednesday. So it probably does have something to do.
But nevermind it. My best friend just told me today that my friend Doug was murdered this past week after getting in an argument with some guy. He was only 16 when he was stabbed to death. I'm pretty much done with crying yesterday, today, whatever. I need to chill out cause this is too much for me to handle and I'm done.
Thanks for the help guys.
That's terrible, Abi. I am so sorry.
I would be willing to bet that a lot of what your going through has to do with where your at in your life. Think about it your winding down everything you've known to this point and you're looking at starting something new and alien. Add to that everything else in your life you have to deal with, the punks on the street, your family, your boyfriend, it's all damn stressful. I remember feeling a lot like you describe when I was graduating from high school and getting ready to head for college. Your at a big transition in your life and the transition your facing only serves to magnify every other stress you have to deal with. This is a time in your life when you really don't know how to feel, at least I didn't. Your excited to get out, be on your own and starting your life but you don't want to leave behind the life you've know either. It's just a very big change that your mind is having to deal with whether you realize it or not.All I can say is just know that things get better.
Thanks. I went to the wake Wednesday. The Funeral is Saturday. I feel like everything is spinning out of control right now. I tried "just doing me" but somehow it always ends up right back with me doing for others. I feel like... I have to play the father's role in this family. My brother's bday was yesterday. I had to buy the cake, make it, buy the gifts, pay for half of dinner, cheer him up because he was depressed about his dad not being there. I'm like... this is a load of bull. I'm only 18 yrs old. I haven't spend money on myself not ONCE because I've been so busy helping my mom out. And don't get me wrong I'm grateful to help her but I mean like... I feel like an old woman. Go to school, go to work, feed the kid, clean the house, do the homework, go to bed. What the heck? I like being "independent" but I'm not friggin 40 why am I being treated like one? :frowning:
I just don't want things to slip by me you know? I'm really sorry. I hate complaining. I just needed to get somethings off my chest and I don't want my mom to get the impression that I'm being ungrateful, because I really do appreciate the sacrifices she constantly makes for us.
