I want to kill myself

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Hey, you guys, trust me, suicide is totally not the way to go, ever. I learned that from a friend Liz, but one more time when I felt like dying, I came here ad discussed it, that's why I love this Forum......besides the fact that it's not as strict as some others LOL! If you guys ever need help, talk to me....PM, of course.

I like coming here, it isn't like a doctors office where it feels like an interrogation and your parents find out everything you say/doI like it because i won't even have to deal with the people in the forum in real life Anyway i don't want to start an argument but suicide, like everything else is not ALWAYS wrong, it depends on circumstances really, if you got dumped and you have acne, thats not a reason I know sometimes that feels like enough to justify your death though, believe me i know,

I so randomly found this site. I am gonna commit suicide tomorrow, I really don't wanna live anymore. I feel bad for my sister and dad. I am so sorry - I doubt you will read this but really, I am so so sorry. I will be doing it by poisoning myself with car fumes tomorrow. That is all I have to say really. Can't wait to die, This world isfucking shit.

Talk to us. Why do you want to do this?

Good luck and hope it works out!

I don't know if any of you people will care but I am so down at the moment. My problems probably won't begin to compare to the sorts of problems other people have but its really starting to eat me up inside. My mum don't wanna know me and has left my dad for some other cunt and is now living with him after a 3 year affair I found out about. I failed my HND at University, I have moved away from home and live with 1 other girl, doing a shit job and slowly but surely sinking into the drugs scene. I am so depressed and feel like there really isn't a point in living let alone get out of bed. Its such a weird feeling and especially a feeling I thought I wud never feel. I have been cutting myself with glass and razors, thats weird, I don't know why I do it - I have been hacking at my left wrist, its scarred pretty bad now. I don't go thru with cutting so deep to kill myself but I am confused to what is wrong with me. Is there anyone that can relate to me or am I just totally fucked in the head. Please help me. I feel so lonely.

your not fucked up. Im the same. my so called 'friends' left me a couple of weeks ago dew to an argument between myself and just one friend who wouldnt let the stupid argument go. he got two of my other friends to go against me and i dont bother with them any more except one who's just started six form with me. yet shes a bitch and i feel she takes every possible moment to try and make me feel bad or left out. All I have now is my best friend and my bf, who are very supportive but get upset if i tell them how i feel or that i feel i want to kill myself, and i dont want to bring them down with me.I have suffered from clinical depression for a long time and am on no medication. i remember it starting when i was eleven and starting high school and i was very lonely and used to cut myself and get close to killing myself yet never went through with it. it wasnt so bad until a couple of weeks ago and i had no idea why i felt that way. then the arguments started, and although i didnt wish to argue, my 'friend' persisted. At first i thought my depression was dew to hormones but i realise rhat it was really dew to them idiots and it still persists. I did the depression test and got a score of 62, (which is bad by the way). The thing is, depression can be caused by many things, and we dont always no straight away whats causing it, and even when you do find out, it can just as easily start up again. Depression is a mental illness, yet it doesnt meen theres anything wrong with us, and you have all the reasons in the world to be depressed. tryto stop cutting yourself cause i dont want anyone to be like me. i either scrath the skin with wire (sometimes barbed) not hard enough to cut myself, but to make it red raw which often hurts more than simply cutting, or i slowly gorge away the skin, slowly making the wound deeper. the scars stay for ages. i always do it on my left arm and the one iv got is still there after over 2 months. its not worth it, thier hard to hide and if those close to us were to find out, then it would be hurtful to them too. Im the other way round to you. i live with my mom and my dad dont give a fuck about me, but thats no reason to punish yourself. dyings not the answer, i no that yet im scared of myself and what i might do. just hang in there. write back and i PROMISE il reply as soon as possible. I havnt got the internet at home so please dont worry if i dont answer straight away. ps GOOD LUCK [image]http://wolf.com[/image]

Thank you for repling to me. Its nice to have someone that can understand how I feel. I really don't wanna be like this at all and it makes me angry with myself as I feel like the problems I have should not be causing me to act like this. I feel like people will see me as a drama queen. I cut myself this morning quite badly today, and it is really sore. How do you know if you suffer from depression? Can you litrally either have it or not have it? I don't know if I am depressed or not. All I know is that I have so many emotions going round in my head, a lot of anger towards my mum and her new partner and I am worrying about the fact I have failed uni, got a shit job and that I have no money and am in trouble with banks and credit card people. I have never been one to go on this sorts of sites or chat in chat rooms, but to be honest, I was trying to find info on commiting suicide and stumbled on to this site. I don't know what to do, where can you do this depression test?

hey again. dont worry. my dad was a git and spent his time in the bookies or in the pub, and then left my mom for an older woman. You can tell when youve got depression by a number of things: decreased interest in everyday things or things you once enjoyed, having crying spells or feeling like crying, feelings of hoplessness or feeling helpless, trouble sleeping, feeling tired for no reason, decresed interest or enjoyment of sex...theres loads of symptons and not everyone gets all of them. you can take a test here. look to your left!<<<<< click on 'zung self-rating scale'. you will get a fair idea to how depressed you are there. ill be here anytime from bout half 4 to 6 tomorrow and then wont be online till monday. just hang inthere and ill reply to you as soon as possible. [image]http://www.ruf.rice.edu/~...ilinks/wolf howl.qif[/image]

I never knew about this depression test, so I decided to take it and see how it goes:In reply to:Score: 72Results: Scores greater than 50 are an indication of depression. Your score suggests that you may indeed be suffering from clinical depression. You should discuss this possibility with your physician.What a surprise.

Your answers indicate that you might suffer from a depression. We recommend that you consult your doctor, regarding your answers to this test Well - I did the test. And thats the result. Feel well shitty today, Just gonnatry and sleep now and I will post simething slightly more interestin in the morning. x

i hate myself i want to die i tryded to kill myself in the past but it didn't work

please tell me somone under stands i hate mylife

I can't really understand why you would want to kill yourself as I don't know you but I cant relate to the actual feeling of wanting to kill ones self as I have that feeling everyday but never go thru with it. Maybe I am just scared or guttless - not sure but I know I don't want be around anymore - getting up in the morning gets harder everyday.

In reply to: please tell me somone under stands i hate mylife i do

I way understand, I feel more like doing it everyday, I wont last many more.

Hey Living Dead Girl. nice to see your still here. Im still here also, crap at the moment but still here. Glad I encouraged alot of you to take the depression test, although mine has sored up to 68 (shit shit shit!). Im back now anyway, so if ya want to talk again, please reply.

Don't base everything on that test.

thisisnt asbad as some experiences, but im so hurt everday from the one's that love me! even my best friend screws me over at every given chance when the prospect of looking good in front of a group!i think its because i get to close to people and im too trusting but every time i do it ppl just take advantage of my nature! i am quite popular at college and aint too bad with girls but guys just seem so jealous and frustrated at me! its like they feel they have to get at me because they are hurt in some way! this i can deal with...., its the fact that its always my friends or family who always find a way to put a downer on me! sometimes they 'joking', yeah so hilarious!! but ALL my family take a dig at me! and just to finish it off they all decide to hurt me with insults etc at the sametime- im feeling so down at the moment and another betrayal might just send me to snap! 'they say you always hurt the ones you love, well it works both ways'...how true (this isnt a reply buti didnt knowhowelse to write something)