Right so, for some reason I don't wanna be gay but I am and i also enjoy watching gay porn and doing dirty stuff with the same gender and I just wanna know why I want to kill myself after having possibly the best moment of my life ? Ok so the best moment of my life was when it was my best friends birthday and let's just call him 'Gareth' for now and there was also another two people there who we will call 'steve' and 'derek' so these people I have known for a while and 'steve' caught my eye that night after watching scream and I caught his apparently and then when it came to going to bed me and 'steve' were still awake and I put my hand to the left and I felt his hand then we looked into each other's eyes and came closer together then one thing led to another we were kissing, with a bit of tongue in there as well then he reaches down my pants and feels my dick and I'm just thinking just go with the flow so I did and then next thing u know he starts to ✊️💦 Me off so then I cum all over his body then I lick it off his body and then he pulls out a condom puts it on my cock for some reason and I've got him in the doggy position and I'm pounding him in the arse luckily 'Gareth's ' mam or dad dosent here what's going on and neither does 'Gareth' or 'derek' so now I just wanna kill myself
I feel like killing myself after having good sex with another male
@anonymous1 At 14 you're sexuality is just beginning to develop. Some will come out of puberty gay and some straight. It's too early for you to attempt to put a label on yourself.
It's not unusual for guilty feelings to creep in after you've done something that, deep down, you may feel that you shouldn't have done. But many guys have gone before you and may have had the same feelings that you have. Why think of suicide? You sound pretty normal and have a lot of good ahead of you