Porn and Masturbation Addiction

randomthings

I believe I have a porn and masturbation addiction, I've had it for at least 2 years now. At first, it didn't really bother me, nor does it now; because I spend most time alone at home, it doesn't really affect me unless I have to talk to others.

It is difficult for me to have a social life with my addiction, especially porn addiction. When I have to talk to others, some previous sex scenes come to mind which makes it incredibly difficult to concentrate and have a meaningful conversation. Knowing I am addicted and it affecting my social life, I am still not able to control it: once I start to arouse, all this is just nebulous in my mind and all I can think about is my orgasm.

In addition to this, I live in a very strict family who don't give me freedom to go out and meet friends - literally I've been out with friends 3 times (maybe for 3 to 4 hours) in a year - the rest of the time I spent at home. Masturbation and porn is one of the very few ways in which I can find some form of pleasure and I guess "happiness". I don't quite understand how the strong hit of dopamine a guy gets from masturbation can be replaced with any activity I can do alone.

You are welcome to share your experience with porn and masturbation in this topic, perhaps knowing that someone is also trying to fight the same problem I am can help me with my addiction. Thank you in advance for any help.

TL;DR
I have porn and masturbation addiction; because I have controlling parents who don't let me socialize that often, porn and masturbation offer some form, if not only form of pleasure.

Ineligible

Hi randomthings, it is very good to hear from you again. You've been in a tough situation with your father, and it is to your credit that you are surviving.

I wish all controlling parents would see what excessive strictness does. Of course, when most sources of pleasure are denied you, you are going to have recourse to what remains. It provides some degree of comfort when you get little elsewhere.

My own view is that it would be futile at this stage to confront it head-on. Instead, you want to develop other escapes. Do try to talk to others, even if you have trouble concentrating. Don't worry if your conversation is not meaningful--it is of value even if it gets nowhere. (I suspect you are a serious person who wants things to have a point.) Are you still at school? If so, use your time there to talk to friends and supportive people, even if it is talk about nothing.