Is it over?

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Well.. Its been a while since I have been 'depressed'. I have the normal getting down about something.. but it doesn't last It just goes away.. and I realize life really isn't THAT bad.. I still have anger issues.. But I can control them. You may say its cause I'm stoned all the time.. Actually, I don't seem to be smoking that often.. Its more of a thing to do on the weekend for fun.. Not daily.. I havn't done it on a regular basis for a while ( week? two? ) I'm doing my HW cause I think its 'interesting' to learn all this stuff.. Watching what I eat so I can loose some weight.. Thought I would let you guys know how I'm doing in this area and Thanks for all the support

Great news, FaBMX! Long may it continue!

As I sat here today, thinking over my entire life, wondering really why I had been depressed. It hit me. I lead a depressing life. All my friends are so busy, they never really have time to talk ( So I hardly ever talk to my friends ), My dad is a complete prick ( Been acting cool lately, still hate him tho ), My mom doesn't really beleive me on stuff, Most of my family ( not imeditat (SP) ) doesn't like me, 95% people my neirborhood hate me, I never have anywhere to go (Friends are always busy), Dad expects me to do as good as sister in school. I just thought about all of it. I don't think its me, its my life. My life is a depressing life. I'm not slipping into another depression, but thats the cause, I believe. I just wanted to get that off my mind.

Well, you're taking charge, trying new things, like your story writing. That's a good thing.

I am taking charge.. I can see whats going on now... and people told me I was stupid for using marijuana.. Weed is the only reason I don't have a knife to my wrist anymore.. and havn't for a while.. and no.. I'm not stoned all the time.

oh.. and everytime I was high.. I wouldn't always just sit there and stare at things.. I would think things out... Reason I see everything now... Isn't this 'Medical Marijuana' ?

no it's not medical

HUGS N CUDDLES::