A BIT LONG WHY I HATE LIFE

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LET ME EXPLAIN WHY: I'M 27 (28 IN NOV.), MALE, & AM STILL TRYING TO GET OUT OF PRIVATE PRISON I CALL A WHEEL CHAIR. FOURTEEN YRS. AGO A TRUCK HIT ME WHILE ON MY BIKE, i DIDN'T GET A SPINAL INJURY (THANK GOD), JUST A CLOSED HEAD INJURY. AFTER MY ACCIDENT I HAD TO HAVE PART OF MY RIGHT LEG AMPUTATED PLUS QUITE A BIT OF OTHER STUFF DUE TO THE HEAD INJURY. I HAD TO HAVE A SURGURY A MONTH AGO TO AMPUTATE A LITTLE BIT MORE OF MY LEG, SO I HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN IN PHYSICAL THERAPY. I SEE OTHER PEOPLE MY AGE GATTING MARRIED, HAVING KIDS & I'V NEVER EVEN BEEN ON A DATE OR KISSED A GIRL MY BROTHER'S EXPECTING HIS 3RD KID & DEEP DOWN I HATE IT THAT HE'S SO HAPPY! AM I WRONG TO FEEL THAT WAY? ON TOP OF THAT I FEEL UNATRACTIVE & HATE TO SEE OR FEEL MY CHEST, BACK & ARMS CAUSE I'M UNDERWEAGHT DUE TO DEPRESSION. MY BROTHER & SISTER TREAT EACH OTHER LIKE ADULTS, BUT DON'T TREAT ME THE SAME. MY SISTER'S GOING THROUGH A DIVORSE, & I'M SECRETLY HAPPY, ISN'I THAT TERRIBLE? JUST CAN'T SHAKE IT, & I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT IT, BUT KNOW I COULD NEVER GO THROUGH COMMITING SUICIDE. PLEASE PROVIDE ANY FEEDBACK YOU HAVE, SORRY THIS WAS SOO LONG.

oo buddy its only natural dont worry bout itbut in your case its a naturaland permenent... you look at these people as if their everything you want to be... and i know what your feeling... i've never gone through it but i know it worse than horrible. but you have to realise these people didn't have a trcuk hit them... your stronger than all of them put together! i bet if i truck hit each one of them the same way it hit you, they'd all be dead. i'm sorry to hear your story... but if i were ever put in a wheel chair permentetly i would comit sucide... i tried thinking of things to do in a wheel chair but i just cant. i'm not saying that all people should follow my way of thinking. but i know what your talking about... sorry dude

This is a tough one. Perhaps only someone else who is confined to a wheelchair can really answer it believably. These are probably pretty common feelings among the wheelchair community, and they must have support groups. (I just did a Google search on "wheelchair support group" and got a lot.)

there was some guy on a current affairs program here the other night who is in a wheel chair, only has 1 leg but is happy...he really enjoys life and is out there doing 1 legged skiing and wheelchair basketball and was saying how it is a change, but it isnt the worst thing that can happenhe was really happy and it was encouraging to see something like that

[quote=HeHe]and i know what your feeling... i've never gone through it but i know it worse than horribleIf you've never gone through you don't know how it feels. Don't say you know how it feels unless you've been through it.

HUGS N CUDDLES::

Thank u soo much 4 posting this reply! No 1 knows what I'm going through any more than a woman that's given birth to a still born baby, or som 1 that's battling cancer by going through chemo therapy.

Well you can use your disability(SP?) to your advantage. I can't think of the names of the sports exactly, but I have seen them. You could try that. Become more sucessful then your siblings! Just a thought

dude you dont have to end up in a wheelchair to understand! i broke my leg and was in a hospital for a month! the bone in my leg was just destroyed! i know how it feels to not be able to do shit!

Breaking a leg is no comparison to being in a wheelchair. When you break a leg it's just temporary and you know you're going to get out, but when you're in a wheelchair (in this case) you know you're never going to get out, those are two different things.It's like saying you know how it feels when somenoe you love dies when it's never happened to you.

ever heard of an imagination! if i knew what it felt to sit in a hospital bed for a month.. you would think that i'd think about what if this is permentant... what if i had to stay here the rest of my life! and someone can think about whats that like! people are different some people know what hurtful situations are like without experiencing it first hand...

Yes, I've heard of imagination. But you do realize that imagination is a picture of what you think something is ? You will never know if it is really the way to be in a wheelchair as you imagine it too be. I can imagine what it's like to be dead but I can't say I know how it feels to be dead because I haven't been dead (yet).

Point taken... but if you can have the same feeling of being stuck in a hospital bed and just take that feeling and imagin it prolonged(sp?) then you would have a good picture of what it would be like

I sorry to hear you're feeling that way. I think that many people could possibly feel the same if in your situation. If not, I'm sure they'd understand. I can understand what and why you're feeling. I think the best thing to do is to join some kind of support group. You'll find people there that are feeling exactly the same thing. You'll have plenty in common and should make some good friends.The way you feel about yourself and life would be affecting the way that people see you. You'll emit this as an aura. I know it's easier said than done, but if you build up your confidence and hope you'll be more attactive to others. Join a group, get out there and meet people. You'll be a more 'meetable' person! Cheer up and post back here whenever you need to! That's no long post either, let it all out!