I had my first depressive episode in March of this year and subsequently began to cut myself. I'd do it because I couldn't cope with emotions like sadness and anger. Eventually I learned to control my cutting urges and gradually stopped doing it. I'm now on anti depressants and have been for a couple of months. They have done they're job, and I feel normal once more. I have a wonderful boyfriend who makes me feel happy. I am happy. Or at least, I thought I was...Tonight I cut myself again. I haven't done so for more than five months. I cut myself because I was so overthrown by anguish that I didn't know how to cope otherwise. I regret having done so.I need some advice. I don't really know what this means. Am I still depressed, or have I just been so deeply wounded by the depression that it has caused me to be so sensitive and feel so helpless that I have to resort to this old crutch?
Cut myself again after five months
maybe something has triggered it again?? has anything changed in the last few days??what as it that made you start cutting first?? maybe its come up again?
I find the best thing to do when you start feeling shitty is just doing something that takes a lot of effort/energy. This gets your mind of shitty things... I don't do this, but go running or something if you can. You get my point. Or just go to sleep or some shit like that.. I promise if you go to sleep, the next day you'll feel better
Or go do something with your boyfriend, if that makes you happy
i am very glad that i have never had to cope with depression, but i know many that are close to me that have. that is very good that you went for so long without cutting yourself. good job! im sorry that it happend again though, what went wrong this time? it could probably help (unless you dont want to talk about it) to inform us of what exactly happend.