Im not dead.....

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hehehehe .... crap farts i forgot.

That's good to hear! In that avatar you look like you could stand up to those tornadoes. :smile:

lmao i wasn't thinking about all the storms we've been having when i said put that in the subject header. lol But since you said something bout those dang tornadoes... im not dead. LMAO a bad storm was supposed to be coming in tonight some time. growl I do hate storms. i think i was going to leave a update or something haha but i had a brain freeze.I think a lot of the people that were around are gone now so i may confuse some people - specially new members haha

Good to see ya, Caleb!

Update..Well yea some towns near mine have been hit pretty bad by tornadoes. We’ve been blessed that one has not came near our house but we have had some trees fall in the roads coming to our house. The main road and one huge tree on the road to our house off the main paved road. I’ve gotten a lot of heavy winds and hail. it’s nice out right now but the wind has picked up - the storm in on it’s way. I can tell by the wind. That’s not really what I was going to say though ha-haI just was thinking that with all the hell I put the forum through it is time for some good news - I guess. LolI’ve passed the exams to enter into the EDU program and this fall I’ll begin student teaching. I’ll be graduating May 2012 in Art Education and Physical Education. I’ll be certified to teach art, PE, and Health. I have 2 major exams left - not for school grades, for the certification. Not worried about them - no math involved lol I’m happy. I’m not the same kid you guys (that know me) knew. I’ve done a WHOLE lot of growing up. Mentally, physically, and even with understanding the abuse. I cant remember when the last time I thought about offing myself was. I don’t have to see my therapist every week, hell I don’t have to see him every month anymore. I’ll always have c-ptsd but at least now I understand it, and understand why I may do some odd things. I’ve learned (from my nut doc) when to tell what feelings make me want to do dangerous things. I pretty much stay away from anything that might make me think of her or trigger. I still get those unexpected things but I pull out of my funck pretty well. I’ve got a new girl ( think most of you know that though) she’s a surgeon’s nurse and she loves to play nurse with me… She don’t get complaints from me. : ) I’ve had to work on the “love “ thing again… I never wanted to feel for a girl like what I felt for Shannon. It’s hit me more harder with Sarah. I’ve been more happy with Sarah than I ever thought I was with Shannon - I can’t really grasp that.I finally can breath and not fill like a 2 ton brick in on my chest. I can sleep, I can shave, hell I can be trusted to go in the medication cabinet now. My head has just blanked out so I guess that’s in that im going to ramble on about.

I thought you would like to know im not dead too... lol
:sunglasses: < i like that smilie haha

WOOOHOOOO!!! Congrats buddy!

It's always good to find someone who has been able to rise above their problems and learn to enjoy life again. Welcome back!!!!!

It's so very very good.

I'm glad and excited things are going good for you buddy.

sweet!You'll make an awesome teacher!

Sweet! I knew it was there.This is good stuff!

Sweet -N- Low.... Just trying to role with the flow here.

Is your town/city/county being threatened by the Mississippi River flooding?

You forgot to add that your muscles are HUGE! :grin:

Glad things are going better for you!

Ya know this is an old thread, but I just want you to know how incredibly proud I am of you and the progress you have made with your life.You know, that I had always felt a great kinship with you and through of you as like at brother and always believed that you would be destined to do good things with your life