Any other cutters?

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This chemical is called an Endorphin, and if you have a really addictive personality, you can become quite addicted to it

I get my endorphin rush from running, swimming, and sometimes biking. After pushing myself hard I get this massive feeling of peacefulness and I'm so relaxed for awhile. It can last for hours and really lift my spirits if I'm feeling down. Usually I need to go hard for awhile to get like this though, a 15 jog isn't enough, I need to do something for at least 30 min and I need to be pushing myself.I don't cut, but I know exactly what you mean by getting addicted to the feeling of something like cutting since the chemical release in the brain is very similar. I kind of miss "runner's high" right now since I haven't done a lot of running lately and I since I got on the treadmill once over the weekend I reminded myself of how good it feels after I've pushed myself.You know... if you were to try to stop cutting (I say this to everyone reading not specifically who I responded to), running or swimming may be a good way of satisfying that feeling for the rush you get from cutting.

how long hav u been cutting???

She might not reply she looks like a one-time poster

yeah...it is really addictive. Its so hard to quit...my best friend thinks i quit and it sucks to have to lie to her...

umm.... few month maybe...not long

yeah lying to important people is hard but is cutting really worth losing them for ?i mean they are important too they may not like to be lied to... i mean what would they say / do if they knew

i only started like 2 weeks ago, i only do it when the pressure inside gets too much. and about the lying thing, i just never mention it so i don't have to lie. everybody thinks i'm just dandy.

sorry if it seemed like my post was aimed in a bad way in ur direction !!i was actually reffering to chichi's post sorry !!

yeah i know. and my mom saw something on my computer so she decided to talk to me. Now she thinks i have a friend who cuts herself and she was talking to me about her friend at work who cut herself and ended up in a mental hospital...

you had best be careful you know i mean its hard to keep a lie up in the long term as you will tend to slip up or make a mistake as well as this one lie leads to many more lies until even you youself will not be sure what the truth is :S xX --- Xx

yeah it is really hard to keep a lie up. But i don't know what else to do.

yeah i really do know how you feel i lied for a long time to many people about my "habit" but after a while their is only so many excuses and as i said before about one lie becoming another that makes it so easy to slip up.i do know how u feel though its not really an easy thing to come out and say in words especially when people believe that you are a happy child :| all i can say is it doesnt get any easier or any harder realli ! ( well thats what i think)o and feel free to pm me anytime.... hope that helps at all

for me it can only get harder... i've only told one person because they are the only person i can trust and i regret that... other people might start to notice soon though and then i'll have to start lying more and more....

why do u regret telling someone you trust ??! i find this hard to understand however if he /she is a non-cutter it is never easy for them to understand what is going on it takes a lot of confidence to tell them !!and as for people noticing yeh i thought about this too but it just depends how u hide it (if that makes any sense)

i regret it because i have to lie to her now and i avoid her. Yeah she is a non-cutter but we have alot of depression in our group so she understands more than some people... its weird though.. people finally noticed the cuts but belive me that my cat did it...

yeah people do believe those i can remember the amount of times that i lied to cover my back wow the list is endless !! it does become harder to lie because people will notice they are more permanent or they get worse / dont heal and saddly the cat excuses etc only last so long..and why avoid her if she know? she might be the only one who can help you at the moment if you are to nervous to tell anyone else !

Why dont you do it some where, where they cant see?

I do. i normally cut on my shoulder but one time i just wanted to cut my arm cause i was really pissed, and the next day it was all bloody...

one time i just wanted to cut my arm cause i was really pissed, and the next day it was all bloody...Yea, when i cut i cut my inner leg, one time i just flipped at cut my arm to where people could see, i was in such a panic to find a way to get rid of the marks.