im just feeling down because of my situation, i brought this up in antoher forum, but things have just gotten worse:
im pretty sure im gay and cant help it
i really would prefer not to be, but ive already tried to ignore it and its not going anywhere
because i believe in being completely honest with my best friend, i told him that i was jealous of that fact that his girlfriend was with him, his gf knows about it now, and shes a jealous, possesive bitch.
she called me a few days ago and told me not to call "her boyfriend" anymore because she is mad at me for not apologizing to her for something i never really did. im not sure why she gets to decide when i should talk the guy who was my best friend long before she ever knew him but whatever
when he and i talked about the whole situation i said that nothing was going to be different, and we agreed that we were still ok and best friends (3 weeks ago), now though he seems to be avoiding me, i may just be paranoid, but i can tell that things are off
so basically i may have fucked up an important friendship all becuase i cant keep things to myself or deal with my own problems
i honestly hate being me and having to worry about this kind of stupid shit